Week 5 - Retraining my mind
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Originally my ultimate goal was 150lbs. I’m just about there and I don’t feel as excited as I thought I would. One thing is clear to me is that I really appreciate how far I’ve come. I look back and know that I was 33lbs heavier this time last year. When I look in the mirror, I don’t see a fat person. I see a lighter person that has a few problem areas (tummy and thighs). This is far different from when I lost the weight before. Instead of still seeing a fat girl, I see toned muscles and a shapely body with areas that can still be improved upon.
This week I have been thinking a lot about what I’ve been thinking. For what ever reason, I seem to panic when I feel like I won’t get enough to eat. So let’s take this upcoming weekend. I will be traveling. The good news is that I will be at my mom’s house. The bad news is that most of the foods there are off limits for me so I usually end up packing breakfast and snacks to take with me. So you are wondering what’s wrong with that. The problem is that I don’t trust that what I eat will be enough so I end up over eating. I will eat breakfast and think well I’m still hungry so I’m going to eat my protein bar and then a hour later nuts and then fruit. Well you get the point those calories add up fast. As I’m typing this I’m realizing that after I finish breakfast at home I’m still usually a little hungry but I just sip on hot tea until the feeling is gone. So I should do the same at mom’s house. If not tea, then water. Lunch and Dinner are usually eaten out or at least I run to the store and pick up a salad from the salad bar.
I can do this. I can make this the weekend that I stay on track. Because I only have 5.2lbs to lose, I must be careful. I see the effort needed to lose the weight and this weekend I won’t be getting in any fitness minutes so every calorie counts.
I really really want to see 140's on the scale. I haven't seen that number is almost 10 yrs. I can do this and I will