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Outrageous Kindness

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Wednesday, January 30, 2013



Today is day 33 of my streak!

January is just about done...and as of today there are only 48 days until Spring! I am thinking ahead to where I'd like to be by that time, and what I need to do in order to make it happen. For the first time in years, I am looking forward to warmer weather! Just saying that I am looking forward to something....it brings tears to my eyes. In the past, warmer weather was something I dreaded because it meant putting away the bulky coats and jackets that I wore all winter to "hide" my obese body. In Spring and Summer, I would wear my stretch pants and t shirts, and I would feel so unattractive, so "un-feminine", so fat, so old. Whenever I would go out in public, I would pull my hair back into a ponytail, slap on a baseball cap, and pretend that I didn't care (or didn't know) that I looked so unhealthy, unhappy and so overweight.

But I did care. Behind my smile, I was crying. I was ashamed of how I'd let myself go. And to comfort myself, I'd buy a bunch of junk food, hide it in my purse, and then sneak it into the house....and then eat it in the middle of the night while hubby was sleeping! And every morning, I would wake up just hating myself for being such a weak person. Oh, the names I called myself! I said such horrible, hateful things to myself every day!



Its different this year, though. I look forward to warmer weather, because I am not ashamed of myself anymore. Its not just about looks, its about ATTITUDE. I don't hate myself like I used to. I LOVE myself! No, I don't think I'm the worlds greatest or anything. But I have finally learned the truth...you can't take care of yourself and reach your goals if you don't love yourself.

I have had such a bad past. But I'm tired of living in the shadow of that. My life is ahead of me, and I don't have to be a prisoner of my old thoughts and feelings. I am looking forward with hope and positivity.

"Don't look back - Yesterday is over, today is a brand new day
Don't look back - It's not the answer, no it's not the way
You can't go forward when you keep looking back
How can you think about the future
When you're haunted by the past?
God don't want you to live like that
Put your hand to the plow and don't look back."
("Don't Look Back" by John Schlitt)



February is almost here, and my goal for the month is to be my OWN Valentine! I hereby pledge to treat myself with "outrageous kindness" all month long...and beyond! I will love myself enough to put my health first...I will love myself enough to eat healthy foods (and to weigh and measure them!)...I will love myself enough to exercise and look for ways to add movement to my day...I will love myself enough to keep working hard to make progress!




And when Spring arrives, I will not be at my goal weight....but I will be closer! I will not wear stretch pants or hide underneath a baseball cap. I will smile, and it will be a genuine smile of happiness and pride because I have worked hard, and I know I am worth the effort!





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PATRICIAANN46 1/31/2013 5:15PM

  Hi Pixie.........
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SIMOFDIM 1/31/2013 5:02PM

    Hold your head high, smile and be proud! You deserve it! You rock! emoticon

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LYNCHD05 1/31/2013 4:39PM

    You have every right to be proud. Way to go!

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BLUEROSE73 1/31/2013 3:54PM

    You're doing great. Keep up the good work.

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TERMITEMOM 1/31/2013 3:46PM

    Yes Pixie, there is nothing like the present!

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LIVELYGIRL2 1/31/2013 3:31PM

  Pixie, we can't love others and God, as well, if we don't like ourselves, so this really helps our relationships!

I also makes you feel better and look better. emoticon

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FUSCHIA6 1/31/2013 2:13PM

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Way to go & I love your pictures!

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SIMONEKP 1/31/2013 1:45PM

    You are the world's greatest you! emoticon

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NEWCHINELO 1/31/2013 1:30PM

    Yes,I must treat my body with love and respect.

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ROCKYCPA 1/31/2013 1:23PM

    You are really doing so well. You are absolutely right to love yourself.

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SLIMLEAF 1/31/2013 1:23PM

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This was really encouraging and inspiring. Thanks for sharing it.

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SCOOTERGIRL 1/31/2013 1:18PM

    LOVE IT!!! worth checking in for. Keep it up. Justlovely.

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BRENDA_G50 1/31/2013 12:54PM

    Thank you for sharing another wonderful message to help me learn how to overcome with my love/hate relationship with myself. You are a incredible person and have helped me in so many ways that I'm sure you don't even realize. You are my inspiration to not give up and to keep going on this incredible journey. emoticon emoticon

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~Brenda~

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NELLBELLA26 1/31/2013 12:53PM

    We are of similar attitudes. I'm learning to love myself more everyday. When there are things that are taking care of myself and I don't feel like doing them, I remind myself to not abandon myself anymore. TAKE BACK your life! It's your life and only you can make the changes and be accountable for yourself and your wellbeing.

The things that we say to ourselves are things we would never dream of saying to another human being. It's outrageous the damage we can do.

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JLPEASE 1/31/2013 12:43PM

    Beautiful blog -- I love it!
Thanks!
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SWEETNHOT 1/31/2013 12:24PM

    That is so wonder Full:) you are a true inspiration to me. emoticon

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POINDEXTRA 1/31/2013 12:18PM

    You've used the term "outrageous kindness" before, and I love it. This from today's blog really speaks to me: "I will love myself enough to put my health first." I've been working on that very thing this week, so thanks for reinforcing it for me!

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DAWN14163 1/31/2013 12:16PM

    Learning to love yourself - it's what it's all about!

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LEMJFOSTER 1/31/2013 12:15PM

  Way to go! Keep it up!

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FIRECOM 1/31/2013 12:12PM

    Your blogs are effective because you always seem to strike a nerve with each of us.

Thanks for another great post.

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WALLINMW 1/31/2013 12:03PM

  Stay motivated!

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USPS669 1/31/2013 11:47AM

  This blog is so good I want to read it several times. So much can be learned from this!!!!!!! Love the pictures in it as well! emoticon

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MARITIMER3 1/31/2013 11:42AM

    We are all definitely worth the effort - once we realize this (something that is often hard for women because we tend to look after others better than we look after ourselves) - we are on the road to success!
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CEEMAY 1/31/2013 11:40AM

    You are amazing! Thank you for sharing your inspiration with us. Love the reminder about spring....

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NOTSOFLUFFYDAD 1/31/2013 11:10AM

    Love it!

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JOYFULSONG45 1/31/2013 11:03AM

    You are so right. Attitude is everything. You have to have the right attitude in order to succeed.

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LINDERVEE 1/31/2013 10:44AM

    Beautiful words. I'm going to bookmark this blog. :)

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LORAINIL 1/31/2013 10:29AM

    I don't know you but had to let you know you are AWESOME! Thank you for sharing your story.
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MOMOSG 1/31/2013 10:26AM

    I enjoyed your blog. It's such a shame the we learn to be so unkind to ourselves. If I regret anything about my life it is all the time I wasted not being able to love myself and be content with my own body!

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ACINNOREV 1/31/2013 10:15AM

  Congratulations, I really am touched by the way you express yourself. Keep on showing God how much you value yourself and please keep blogging.I for one find encouragement from you.

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CHRISBEM 1/31/2013 10:11AM

    I really like your first quote - will be posting it for myself

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VIRGIE221 1/31/2013 9:57AM

  You sound so much like me. Thanks for the encouragement. emoticon

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REBIRTHDIVA 1/31/2013 9:56AM

    very inspiring! outrageous kindness... I LOVE IT! emoticon

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LETHANIA 1/31/2013 9:53AM

    Thanks for writing! I think I needed you to say this to me today! you have done amazing things!!! Keep it up!!!

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LADYABIGAIL627 1/31/2013 9:52AM

    You are an inspiration! You have worked so hard...you must be so proud! Come on summer...Pixie has arrived!!!

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DIANNEMT 1/31/2013 9:50AM

    Seems silly but--give yourself a goodie during Feb--just as you'd do for a friend--the positive things you say when doing that can make a big difference!

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HLOCHRIDGE 1/31/2013 9:38AM

    WHOO HOO!!!!!! You go girl!!!

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BESCATS 1/31/2013 9:37AM

    What a touching blog. The best advice for all of us ~ look forward, not behind.
You have done a terrific job ~ 71 lbs. WOW !!
You just made my day a little better. Thank you. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KATHIC2 1/31/2013 9:37AM

  Fantastic way to look at things! You are inspiring!

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DJSHIP46 1/31/2013 9:35AM

    My thought for today... Focus on qualities U like about yourself. Sharing it with you because I relate to so many of the things you write. Happy Feb.

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