Wednesday, January 30, 2013
I don't know what it is about turning 50.
Is it the age of self-knowledge, mixed with the feeling that I have no more time to waste? Could it be that the ability to say NO when needed and YES to exactly what I want has finally kicked in?
I have always been responsible, stable, hard working.
And now I realize that life does not have to be hard.
I have given birth to two children, raised them and let them go into the world.
I am acquainted with the grief of far too many funerals. Lost long time friends because their poor choices keeps us apart. Money, homes and cars have slipped through my fingers like sand and time has passed that can never be regained.
So where do I find this sparkling joy and unwavering hope for the future?
It is in the daily gratitude for all that I have, all that I am and all the unlimited potential of what I can still yet become. When the lessons of life have been learned than age brings wisdom. Age brings peace in the knowledge that the past is over and done with, and that every single day - no, every single moment is another opportunity to change direction, to do and be better and to transform!
At fifty years old I feel, look and think better thoughts than I did when I was thirty. I believe in abundance instead of scarcity and lack. The connectedness of all things instead of separation. I love myself and therefore have more love to offer the world. I am enough exactly as I am.