Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Woke up at 5:50 planning to do a quick 10 minute warmup then my Gorilla exercises before showering, packing my lunch (usually done the night before) and heading out to work. Needed to leave by about 7; some time in there for kid stuff.
As I got out of bed my five year old stumbled into my room. He had had an accident. I cleaned him, got him comfortable on the couch just in time for the one year old to start screaming for his morning nurse. Nursed him for ten minutes. Got downstairs, started warming up, when my three year old came crying down the stairs: "Pick me up! Pick me up!" Held him while marching in place then one year old came crying and begging to be held. Tried to put him on my back so I could continue the "workout" but he was having none of that (strange -- he loves to be back carried usually). Continued with two fussy angry kids. Baby got distracted by his doll stroller, which he proceeded to push directly behind me so I tripped over it and him, sending him back into hysterics. Husband finally woke up and took the two littles so I could finish up. 6:50. Scrambled to shower and dress, tore three pairs of stockings, found no veggies in the fridge besides carrots, threw some food together, greeted my other two kids, threw together a fruit smoothie ("Slurpee" they call it) with yogurt for the boys and ran out of the house with a still whiny baby calling after me at 7:15.
Then my six year old opened the front door and called after me to come back because the baby needed another hug.
I yelled back that I had given the baby plenty of hugs that day and he would be okay and kept going.
And now I'm feeling guilty. Guilty for not going back for that last hug. Guilty for not spending the hour hugging and cuddling and caring for those precious little people. I'm NOT feeling guilty for not getting in such a great workout -- that was never the plan for the morning anyway. But the blah workout -- was it really worth the human cost?
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Some days I feel like that. But then I think of how much of the child care I do compared to my husband(who has been out of work for almost 2 months). I owe it to not only to myself to get healthier, but to my 3 kids as well. My almost 11 month old daughter is the hardest child to work around. I can't let her out while exercising b/c she gets into stuff and is quite wobbly after she's pulled to a standing position. Sometimes she'll go in her swing, jumperoo or walker, but not for long. My boys are a bit easier and they sort of get why I exercise - they're 5 and almost 7 years old. I can put tv on for them if I get desperate enough. Anyway, I probably should be doing my ST instead of typing this. Kid #1 will be home from school in 40 minutes.
1578 days ago
I don't think you should feel guilty. Maybe the kids were sad for a little bit, but in the long run, they aren't going to remember that one day when mom didn't give me the 5th hug that I wanted. They ARE however going to remember the healthy mom that could keep up with them going biking, swimming, sledding...whatever your family does for fun. Don't be frustrated...you persevered!! You proved to yourself that amid chaos, you can get your exercise in. And just like the previous poster said...you have to take care of yourself too.
1578 days ago
Wow-- that was a hectic morning!
I've only got two little girls, but my 3 year old is practicing the art of stalling me. When I get her to daycare, lately, she wants a long kiss and hug goodbye, but every other day it seems like she has some new trick up her sleeve... this morning, for instance, she told me she needed to go potty. She won't let one of the daycare teachers help her with this, and I want to encourage her because we're still working on the potty training (She says, "I don't want to wear panties!" no matter how excited she is about the characters on them.) So I have to take her in and let her potty... and you know, when you try to rush them, it just takes longer. It's so much faster to drop my 10-month-old off in her classroom. I just put her in one of their bouncies and she starts playing as I walk away.
I could easily see my 3-year-old telling me that the baby needs another hug just so she could get another minute in with me, too. Kids are so sweet, but they have no concept of "late".
The thing is, you've got to take care of you just as much as you've got to take care of them. It sounds like you've got a houseful, and if you skip one workout, it might be easier to skip the next... whether it's a blah workout or not.
I understand your frustration. It's so hard as a mom to let ourselves believe that the kids do come first about 99.7% of the time, and that sometimes we need a little more space/time to take care of ourselves, too. I think it's great that at least you tried to include the little ones in your workout. It's okay that it didn't go as planned... with kids, when does it ever?
1578 days ago
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