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2013 NEW YEAR UPDATE

Wednesday, January 30, 2013


THE LAST FEW MONTHS HAVE BEEN VERY HARD ON ME STRUGGLING TO EAT PAY BILLS,FAMILY MEMBERS AND FRIENDS SICK HAVING ONE SURGERY AFTER ANOTHER.I AM WORE OUT EXHAUSTED BEEN VERY DEPRESSED.I TRY TO STAY FOCUSED PRAYED UP AND IN A HAPPY FRAME OF MIND.BUT I HAVE BEEN LOOSING THIS FIGHT AND STRUGGLE.WHEN I THINK THINGS CANT GET ANY WORSE MY BEST FRIEND COMMITS SUICIDE.THEN THERE IS MY OWN PHYSICAL PAIN BROKEN WRIST AND SUCH.AND YES IT GOT TO THE POINT WHERE I ALSO FELT LIKE JUST ENDING MY OWN LIFE.SO I PRAYED HARDER AND CRIED OUT TO GOD LOUDER.I HAD TO STEP AWAY FROM EVERYTHING AND TAKE A GOOD LOOK AT THINGS GOING ON AROUND ME.AS BAD AS THINGS WERE GOING I REALIZED GOD WAS STILL WITH ME AND HAD NOT ABANDONED ME.I AM ONLY HUMAN.AND I HAVE NEVER CLAIMED TO BE ANYTHING BUT ME.TODAY I HAD TWO FRIENDS REMOVE ME AS THERE FRIEND BECAUSE THE TALK OF SUICIDE UPSET THEM,WELL I HAVE LOST4 PEOPLE ON MY FRIENDS LIST IN A COUPLE OF YEARS TO SUICIDE,AND MANY OF YOU WERE FRIENDS WITH THEM TO.IF YOU THINK FOR ONE MINUTE I AM STRONGER OR INVISIBLE TO HURT OR PAIN PLEASE DELETE ME NOW.ALL I CLAIM TO BE IS WHAT I AM,A MAN WHO LOVES GOD AND TRIES TO SHOW EVERYONE LOVE AND RESPECT.I KEEP YOU ALL IN MY HEART THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS,AND HOPE YOU KEEP ME IN YOURS.YOU ARE LOVED AND GOD BLESS ¢¾
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  • v TIME2BLOOM4ME
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  • v LOSINGLINNDY
    emoticon you have had such a painful time. God is with you. As a sister in Christ, I will also be walking beside you and and sending blessings.
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  • v TXMEMAW6
    So sorry for all the pain you've encountered in your life. You are so right, God does love you with a love that knows no end. Keep Him foremost in your life and rely on Him and He will see you through all of your troubles and trials.
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    1244 days ago
  • v ANIHAKA
    Have faith and remember you are strong. Like the rest of us we have all been gifted with life so our job is to make the best of what we have. We all have our ups and downs some more so than others noone is immune to pain¬ Remember you are a child of God no less than the birds & trees you are meant to be here & whether or not it is clear to you no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should." Have faith in God & ultimately in your strong self. Bless your friends who took their own lives, pick yourself up and remember you are here to give to the world you are unique worthy human being. emoticon emoticon
    1244 days ago
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  • v RDGISME
    You need to remember that God is with you every single step of the way! When you broke your wrist? He was there...could have been much worse, right? Your friends who commit suicide? He stood by them and wept as they chose that final action. He is with us each and every step of the way, thru-out our entire lives! Good decisions, bad ones...ones out of our control He loves you , and as your sister in Christ: I love you! Please know that you are being prayed for, will be prayed for daily and lifted up to him each day!

    Yours because His,
    ~Becci
    1244 days ago
  • v KITT52
    keep praying...you are loved....

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  • v BEEJAY49
    Life gets really hard sometimes, but always remember God will NEVER abandon you! Neither will your friends if they are TRUE friends. One day at a time, one step at a time. Many things we can't control in our lives tend to take us over, but knowing that God is there for us each and every minute keeps us moving forward on the path He wants us to be on. God Bless and Hugs!
    1244 days ago
  • v TCANNO
    emoticon and try to stay on top. I am sure you must have friends on here to help you.

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