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A Wrinkle in Time

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Old songs have a way of hiding in the back of my brain. At some unexpected time some little cue will appear in my daily life and tickle some little fragment of one of those melodies and draw out just enough of the lyrics to drive me crazy. And so it has been with A Wrinkle in Time.

I first heard the song at a folk music concert around 40 years ago. The performer was Gordon Bok, a Maine basso in blue jeans who crooned rich tones and wrote his own music, often about the mystical call of the sea and/or events that unfolded once he got into his boat and out onto the waves. This particular night he was performing in a small auditorium on the campus of what was then a women's college. He sat alone on the stage with a glass of water, two guitars (a 6-string and a 12-string), amplifying equipment of some sort, and a couple speakers. The local technician probably set the spotlight and then went out for a beer, since the singer never moved from his chair during the concert.

I didn't feel as though I belonged there. But my then-husband wanted to go, so of course we went. And like every one else, I was entranced.

After the primary concert was over there were calls for encores, and that was when he presented that haunting piece. "I wish I had a wrinkle in time, a place where I could go," The next part is a memory blur. Fast forward to the beginning of the refrain, "I'd close my eye an instant and be gone, open them wide and I'd be back again. . .rested and strong from my world" and then the rest of it is a blur again. Perhaps one of these days I'll see if I can find these lyrics on-line.

But in the meantime, I really need to find that wrinkle in time Mr. Bok was singing about. I picture it as a snapshot of an inch worm crawling along on a wall of time, its two ends scrunched up close together and the main party of its body forming a humongous loop sticking up in the middle, as seen from the side. If I walk along the wall, then follow the body around (never mind gravity or falling) I will get exercise or rest or the time to read a book or ,,,or.... or...?? and then end up back at about the same place and time as when I left and ready to face my reality again.

Some days in my real world are frantic, filled with demands from the engineers for whom I provide administrative support, followed by a commute in heavy traffic, complicated these last several months by the darkness during both morning and evening drives. When I get home I'm tired and hungry and it seems the day is already gone. My energetic daughter works at a demanding job, has a much longer commute than I do, lives farther north than I do and so faces longer dark days, and she still has energy to work out and go back to school and deal with her family! Oh yes, she's 32 years younger than I am. I guess that does make a difference. Hmmm....if only .....

So now I look for that wrinkle in time. I would move oh so slowly on it, resting first, then working out for an hour, then reading a few pages of a new book, and finally coming back to where I started so I would still have energy to visit with my husband, catch up on the early TV news, and then get to bed in time to get 8 hours of sleep instead of my usual 6-1/2.

I have lost 15 pounds in 5 months. Perhaps when I find that wrinkle in time (no, not buried in a wrinkles in my skin) I could get rid of this weight faster and have more energy. Meanwhile, I'll just have to keep trudging along, grateful for my SparkPeople trackers and the encouragement I get from my Spark Friends. And losing about 3 pounds a month.
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    What a wonderful writer you are. Your use of the language is spectacular. Your topic hit home for me as well.

    Thank you so very much.
    1808 days ago
    Hi; I got back from Austin yesterday afternoon and spent the evening with my dad. Got home about 9PM. Signed in and went to bed. Had dentist appointment this morning and grocery shopping this afternoon. Will pick up my 2 dogs and cat from the vet about 5. I still have to go see my dad and take him some things he was out of. then come home rest for about 2 hrs and then get ready for bed. Somewhere in there I need to fit in some exercise time. I went over my calorie count several days while gone and don't want to talk about sodium levels. I am afraid to get on the scales I am sure I have gained several lbs. You seem to be doing well 15 lbs is great. emoticon Remember it takes us longer to lose but we will get it done. emoticon
    1814 days ago
    There's nothing wrong with losing 15 pounds in 5 months -- remember, in the long wrong losing slowly is more likely to last! Keep reminding yourself that you aren't in a race with anyone else, we're all different and all need to find our own pace. Besides, if you reached your goal too quickly you probably would think you didn't need us anymore and then we'd miss you...

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    1819 days ago
    You are headed in the right direction... Remember, baby steps. If you can't fit in a workout, and you are super hungry, just make sure that when you eat, you are eating healthy foods in healthy portions, and don't stress about the workouts. Remember, stress and lack of sleep can contribute to other health issues that will keep you down longer than just missing a couple of workouts. emoticon
    1819 days ago
  • SUNSHINE99999
    trudging can be good as long as your moving in the right direction so get it done my friend. Blessings! emoticon
    1819 days ago
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