I could be so much more than this.
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
I'm borrowing this topic from MichiganLori, who is a super Spark Motivator, but they don't award that title yet... alas, my version isn't nearly as funny or lighthearted. Read her's, really.
Dear sixteen year-old self,
Here's the thing, perfection isn't attainable. It doesn't matter how close you feel to it or how exhilarating it feels for that moment. Imperfection IS perfection. Get used to it. It's going to be a bumpy road.
1.) Your mom is going to suggest you lose weight together. Join her. It works. The results are pretty awesome too: boyfriend, stellar swim season, and a few college recruits!
2.) Here's the thing: when your friends start telling you it's time to stop losing weight, they aren't kidding. You'll LOVE the attention and think they're crazy (or jealous), but you need to stop. Don't count calories obsessively and eat three meals a day. At the very least think about future you, we need a fast metabolism in our twenties.
3.) Stuff happens. It's not pretty. It's not supposed to be. That does not give you an excuse to drink those feelings away, sleep those feelings away, or eat those feelings away. Find an outlet - stay in the pool, stay with your friends. Avoid decisions that leave you vulnerable and lost.
4.) Remember the imperfection thing? Yeah, it gets better and you're imperfections are mistaken as cheeky self-deprecation. Welcome to the era of "one of the guys"! They're good, stay with them, they keep you focused and safe. Do NOT date any of them.
5.) There's this frat party in the second semester of your freshmen year (you'll know it, the whole swim team is invited). Go to it. And when a beautiful man puts his arm around your waist, squeezing you close to whisper in your ear, enjoy it. It's the safest you've felt in years.
6.) Marry the guy from #5. Beach wedding. Surf Taco colors. It's awesome. You'll love it.
The rest will work itself out. Open yourself to experiences - positive and negative alike. Allow yourself to feel and accept - and be accepted. Don't hope you'll figure it out in a one pound bag of trail mix or a handle of whiskey. They call it spiraling out of control for a reason.
Take care of yourself, damn it,
PS - You DO look awesome in that green bikini. Stop covering yourself up!