Tuesday, January 29, 2013
I was telling my 'best friend' over the weekend, while at Cracker Barrel.... I just LOVE the pecan pancakes at Cracker Barrel. It was a real treat. Anyway, I was telling my friend that a few of my spark friends have written a letter to their 16 year only self. I mentioned that I thought this was real interesting. I was thinking of what I would tell myself.
I said, wouldn't it have been nice to be able to tell yourself that everything was going to be all right. He said immediately with no hesitation something like...
I already knew. There was no option. I was going to succeed no matter what.
This blew me away in a way. He really meant it. It is just that way. He would literally die trying. There is no way he would not succeed. I think it wI know him well. But still to hear this. He was out on his own by 16. He had his own apartment and multiple jobs to pay for it and buy bread for food. He had to drop out of high school for a year and then they would not let him in. He had to then get hiould be letting "others" win andhe would not let that happen. He had to drop out of high school for 1 year. They would not let him go back. He had to get his GED. He now has an MBA and a Masters in Psychology. He is the best of the very best.
It amazes me. It is so interesting how someone with such a horrible childhood can build himself into such a strong person. He is very independent and hates to lean on others. I suppose that is because he could not depend on others for anything. He is not very trusting. He remembers everything.
My childhood was totally different. The most difficult times in my life were relationship based. I would tell my 16 year old self that the best time of my life would not start until after 25yo (when I met my best friend). I would tell myself to do more and care less about 'friendships'. Well, I would have to think on it a while.
Odd blog I know. It is just what was on my mind.
Today, I was a bit crabby and flustered. I had a hard time sleeping after 3 or so, got up at 4:30. Jumped on the treadmill for 2.5 miles. Got a bit of jogging in. I need to start jogging again. I realized later that I was crabby because I was feeling rushed. I decided to not leave quite so early to get to work.
I went ahead and emptied the dishwasher, made the bed and straightened up quite a bit. I was still the second one in to the office and felt much better. :)
I am happy (yet VERY scared to type) that I have been at 111.+ lbs or 112.+ for a full week now. I am scared to change my tracker. Not even sure what my tracker says. Is this real? I REALLY hope so. I am still not logging food but am watching carefully and doing a bit of figuring on scrap paper to track a bit. I am getting in my steps and 2miles a day on the treadmill (on average). I need to log food. I know. Not sure why I resist so much.
I still need to get more toning in. My rear end is not my own. YUCK. But I think I am moving in the right direction.
Hair trim Thursday evening and Dentist Friday at 10:30. I am in significantly less pain then last Thursday through Saturday, thank God!
Well, that's the update for now. Sorry, no pictures. I am on my work laptop at lunch and feel hesitant to do more than this.
HUGS 2 U!