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I've Been in Denial

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Tuesday, January 29, 2013



Today is day 32 of my streak!

I am co-leader of a great team called Rootin' for Ruby. Today, one of the other leaders of the team (Healthyhappydeb) posted a discussion topic and she asked, "Do you think you could be in denial regarding any aspect of your issues with weight?"

My first instinct was to answer that question "no." But something made me pause. I took a moment to think that question over....and I realized that the answer was actually "yes." I have been in denial.

For weeks now....actually, MONTHS....I have been saying that I am at a plateau, and that I don't know why. But today, I really was honest with myself. No more denial. I know why I'm at a plateau. I haven't wanted to face it or admit it to myself. But I have been sabotaging myself.

Although I know how important it is to weigh and measure my food, I have not really been doing that with any regularity. Oh, I break out the food scale or the measuring cups & spoons every once in a while, but most of the time I just make "guess-timates." And I lie to myself. I say "Oh, that looks like a tablespoon of peanut butter", but in reality it is more like two tablespoons, or maybe even three. Or I say "That looks like a one cup serving" but deep down inside I know its a bit more.



I have lied to myself by saying "a little bit more won't matter in the long run." And that might be true, if the "little bit more" was just every once in a while. But its not. Its an every day occurrence. A little too much for breakfast...a little too much for lunch....a little too much for dinner. And it all adds up to a LOT too much.

Another way I have been sabotaging myself is that I have become lazy with tracking my food. I have been in denial about that, telling myself that I don't need to track my food, because I know how much I'm eating.



And the sad thing is, I know better. I KNOW I need to measure and weigh my food. I KNOW I need to track my meals. I exercise every day, but exercise is not a free pass to over eat. Sure, the food I eat is healthy food. I have eliminated junk food from my daily diet. But even eating healthy food can make you gain weight (or put you at a plateau) if you eat too much.




Its time for me to stop living in denial. I know what I want; I want to keep losing weight, I want to be healthy, I want to be fit and strong. And I know what I need to do in order to make it happen; I need to measure my portions, I need to track my food, and I need to stop lying to myself about how much I am eating.



I have lost 71 lbs since last March, so I'm a long way from where I started, but I still have a long way to go to get to where I want to be. And I will never get there if I don't start getting my nutrition in line. Starting today, I am going to do the things I know I need to do to get over this plateau.

Starting today, I will remember what my ultimate goal was when I started this journey last March, and that was to be as HEALTHY as I possibly can be.



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NASFKAB 3/25/2013 5:44AM

  awesome thought provoking

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CINDYBEL 2/26/2013 10:33AM

    So true

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EFFRAYECHILDE 2/19/2013 8:31AM

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TERRIJ7 2/18/2013 11:13PM

    OOUUUCH!!!! That blog NAILED me! Okay--back to the weights and measures....

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PCASEY7 2/6/2013 10:40PM

    Great blog and self realization! You'll do this just like everything else you've accomplished!

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BELDONDOG1 2/4/2013 7:19PM

    Good Blog! I think you have everyone thinking. Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us!

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FALLNTENN 2/2/2013 1:16PM

    This blog made me realize that I am doing the same things. I'm at a plateau of my own making. It's time to face reality. Thanks for the wake-up call (blog).

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CICELY360 2/2/2013 10:28AM

  good blg

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MISSLISA1973 2/1/2013 11:33PM

    I completely understand. emoticon

Lisa

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POINDEXTRA 2/1/2013 10:15PM

    SO True! I've maintained a 50-60 pound for almost 10 years, and the sole reason is tracking. I STILL do not have an intuitive sense of what is a proper portion or when I have had enough (though I have improved in that area). The measuring cups, scale, and food tracker are my friends!

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PENNYPACKER3 1/31/2013 4:49PM

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GODSBEST 1/31/2013 1:57PM

    Wow! I could have written this blog myself. emoticon

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MASTERPIECE8 1/31/2013 12:40PM

    emoticon Great blog.

After reading this - oh, yes, I'm in denial too. Thanks for the 'wake up' call.

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PABA77 1/31/2013 12:24PM

    Thank you. I was just having this argument with myself today.

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FIRECOM 1/31/2013 12:09PM

    I absolutely loved this post. I am sure that many, of not most, of us have gone down this path at least once.


thanks.

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FARIS71 1/31/2013 8:39AM

    Oh dang that was a little reality check for me. So (painfully) true!

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LIFETIMER54 1/31/2013 8:05AM

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STEVIEBEE569 1/31/2013 6:39AM

    Awesome blog! With the equation of 80% nutrition, 10% exercise, and 10% genetics, I made a decision to clean up my eating habits. I purchased Eat Clean Recharged by Tosca Reno as well as the new Sparkpeople Cookbook. I'm going to start planning my menus as well as cooking more! So, this weekend, I will be going shopping as well as getting rid of food items that are not good for my new lifestyle. Your blog with the pictures, definitely tells me that I'm on my way! So, thanks again for sharing your thoughts!

You're amazing! Keep up the good work!

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LISAN0415 1/31/2013 5:00AM

    Great Blog!

I have been remining people about the 80% and 20% weight loss tip.

Matthew McConaughey the actor recently lost over 30 lbs for a role- now his is not what I would call a healthy weight loss, but he mentioned in an article that he has always done lots of cardio (and there have been pictures of him for years running on beaches) But he said to lose the weight hetried exercising more, and didn't lose much, it was mostly due to what he ate.

I know we can all get a little "lax" about measuring, but the truth is, it only takes a few second to put our food in a meauring cup, or an a scale, or get out the meauring spoon, and it makes such a difference. It's great you recognized this, now more progress is coming!
Best wishes!
Lisa



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PLITIN 1/31/2013 2:40AM

    reality check.... yes, you (again) held a mirror right in front of my nose...

....and the best thing about it you always seem to be able to guide me along with your words! Thank you, Pixie!

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NETTYDAWG 1/31/2013 12:04AM

    What a well written blog and so so true. I've been on a "plateau" for the last year. Yes I've discovered there were psychological reasons but also I've been sabotaging myself and it was only this week that I truly realized. Now to turn things around. Tracking, scales, and measuring cups are the tools required. We will all make this work for us when we are honest with what we are truly doing. Thank you for a wonderful blog.


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JUSGETTENBY42 1/30/2013 11:06PM

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NEWTINK 1/30/2013 10:20PM

    I am on the flip side of your issue .. i know what i am eating I just know also that I am not coming anywhere close to my nutrition goals a day. I am expected to eat a lot more than i actually do and yes i know that my body will think it is starving and store whatever to keep it energized but it is so hard to eat when you are not hungry at all .. You can do this I believe in you . you have come a long way already so just look as perfecting the your plan just one more thing that you have to do get to where you want to be. emoticon emoticon

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DIANNEMT 1/30/2013 9:55PM

    I have not been measuring either. And yes--I do not make good estimates.... So I need to either measure or over-estimate on my tracker..... I'll get out the spoons and the cup measures. I promise.

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CINDYAST 1/30/2013 9:00PM

    Excellent blog and one I can relate to. It's so easy for me the just "guess" and not do the work required to get the results I want. Thanks for your honesty and reminding me to be honest with myself.

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SHOAPIE 1/30/2013 8:52PM

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LEPETITCHIHUA 1/30/2013 7:44PM

    I'm looking forward to your seeing results very soon, emoticon

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SPEEDY143 1/30/2013 6:25PM

    Where's the I LOVE THIS BLOG button???? Because YOU hit the nail right on the head and have driven home a message we all can relate to emoticon emoticon

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LINDAK25 1/30/2013 5:33PM

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I've often wondered what will happen when I get to maintenance. How will I do if I don't track and weigh my food? My nutritional balance was so off before Spark and I wonder how will I keep things in balance? I envy people who can do this without tracking. However, if you're on a plateau and you don't want to be there, tracking and weighing your food really is the only way to go.

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BLUE42DOWN 1/30/2013 5:31PM

    So easily could have been written by me, though I have yet to actually claim to be on a plateau because I ~KNOW~ when I'm pulling those food sabotage tricks on myself. (Amazing how big an eyeballed tablespoon of peanut butter can get!)

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TERMITEMOM 1/30/2013 5:25PM

    Portion control... HUGE challenge. Not measuring accurately doesn't help.
You are right on the money Pixie!

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SUSIEMT 1/30/2013 5:07PM

    Pixie this is the very BEST blog you have written since forever. Hats off to your co-leader for posing the topic. It hit home for me! And I use my measuring cups faithfully but when it comes to that peanut butter I always fail to bring out the tablespoon. Hmmm! I need to bring it out and USE it.
Thank you! Spark on!

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BLUEROSE73 1/30/2013 4:52PM

  Good for you for facing what's going on. You can do this. I know you can

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PATRICIAANN46 1/30/2013 4:08PM

  Good for you, Pixie. You are facing your challenges head on!!! emoticon

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HUNGRYWOMAN2 1/30/2013 3:49PM

    Thank you for the important reminders/! emoticon It is difficult to be truly honest with ourselves, but once we are amazing things can happen.
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TUTUNAN 1/30/2013 3:13PM

    Oh, my, Pixie, but the truth hurts. I can add a ditto to everything you said. Thanks for having the courage to say it.

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SPECIALGURL7 1/30/2013 3:02PM

    Thank you for this. It has helped me to look at myself and what I am doing. I realize I could do better than what I am doing. emoticon

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SHELLBELLE43207 1/30/2013 2:40PM

  This helped me to open my eyes about a situation of my own. Thank you for sharing.

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JANEMARIE77 1/30/2013 2:02PM

    great job one more step in the equation to a life time of health


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LIVELYGIRL2 1/30/2013 1:25PM

  Your a gutsy lady. The truth be said, it's ca be pain and nuisance to measure. I guess if you can eat more often, or choose thins so you don't feel hungry. Maybe, it's more tan being hungry... food can fight boredom, stress, inner longings... that is also something to consider... Hang in thee, you still have come a long long way. Just that you came o this conclusion, says alot. Good for you PIXIE. We believe in you! emoticon

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PANDORABERRY 1/30/2013 1:17PM

  Well Done!!! I was doing the same thing a couple of months ago doing what you were doing. I decided to track my food and measure and do what I suppose to and since then I have been having a weightloss every week!!!

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TORTISE110 1/30/2013 1:17PM

    You have reminded me that honesty is the antidote to denial and it's not easy to keep it honest with ourselves, our food and our exercise. Thank you!

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DOBSONSM 1/30/2013 1:02PM

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JANESLOSS 1/30/2013 11:45AM

    WOW!
OK Pixie I confess, this has been my problem since October and I'm fooling myself in thinking that weight won't creep back on and be even harder to take off. I almost made it yesterday, but I was alone and lonely last night and ate more calories than I should. They were healthy foods, just too much. I need to make a commitment to myself and start weighing and logging everything. Thanks for sharing. I thought I was alone in this problem.

Big Hugs,

Jane emoticon

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HAPPENING101 1/30/2013 11:32AM

  Hey.....who put you in charge of reporting what I'm doing?? Lol! That was so similar to what I do all the time. Glad to hear I'm not the only one who does that. Good luck to you and thanks for sharing!! emoticon

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TAKINBACKMYBODY 1/30/2013 11:10AM

    OMG - I'm reading your blog and seeing my own issues in print in almost every sentence!!! I'm rooting for you, I know these issues with food are die-hard habits that are going to take lots of effort, focus and work to change.....here's to conquering the bad eating in 2013! emoticon

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