Monday… Do I have to go to work?...01.28.13
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
For some reason, I have no motivation to go to work. But alas, I must go. I think I’ll be able to power through it, but I just want it known that I don’t want to go.
My weightloss is still a mystery. I weighed in last Saturday at 264. Over the course of a few days I went up 6 pounds and have continued to stay there. I’m still not sure. I weighed everyday just for the sake of seeing. Saturday’s are my official weigh in day so that’s what I count.
I cried. I literally cried because I don’t know what is going on with my body. I know I couldn’t have gained 6 pounds in a few days. Now I’m being honest, my food intake hasn’t been the best. But I haven’t consumed enough calories and fat to gain 6 pounds over a few days.
So I cried. I was frustrated and upset because I have been putting in the work. I have been counting calories, measuring and weighing everything! I’ve been working out. I’m starting to run again. I never realized but I had missed it.
The old me would have given up. I would have been resigned and just said screw it. I’m destined to be fat. But I’m not taking that answer. I’m not happy about that answer. I am not destined to be fat. Not just fat, obese. I’m not going to be that anymore