Tuesday, January 29, 2013
For some reason, I have no motivation to go to work. But alas, I must go. I think Iíll be able to power through it, but I just want it known that I donít want to go.
My weightloss is still a mystery. I weighed in last Saturday at 264. Over the course of a few days I went up 6 pounds and have continued to stay there. Iím still not sure. I weighed everyday just for the sake of seeing. Saturdayís are my official weigh in day so thatís what I count.
I cried. I literally cried because I donít know what is going on with my body. I know I couldnít have gained 6 pounds in a few days. Now Iím being honest, my food intake hasnít been the best. But I havenít consumed enough calories and fat to gain 6 pounds over a few days.
So I cried. I was frustrated and upset because I have been putting in the work. I have been counting calories, measuring and weighing everything! Iíve been working out. Iím starting to run again. I never realized but I had missed it.
The old me would have given up. I would have been resigned and just said screw it. Iím destined to be fat. But Iím not taking that answer. Iím not happy about that answer. I am not destined to be fat. Not just fat, obese. Iím not going to be that anymore