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Follow The Yellow Brick Road

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Hi! My name is Susie and I am 41 years old. I hate to admit it but I have rarely ever finished anything. I truly have a very hard time making myself a priority and have often used helping other people as my crutch. I love people and I love being able to help. Over the years I have lost the people that were closest to me and I feel so lonely now. The most significant people in my life, my Sister (and best friend), my Son, my Daughter, my Mother and my Father have all passed away.

I have eaten my weight in grief over different tragedies in my life and find it so hard to let the past go and move beyond the pain. I often think of everyone that is gone and just sit and eat, eat, eat, and eat. But the truth now is that I am sick of feeling sorry for myself. I am tired of all the sadness. Somehwere there has to be some happiness.

I feel a lot like Dorothy right now having just landed somewhere over the rainbow. I am a little bit scared and excited to see new things. Mostly I just want to get to the "Emerald City"! I believe it's called "ONE"der land (ha,ha). I also hope to meet some really smart, caring and courageous friends along the way to help me reach my goals, stay motivated and make a change that will last a lifetime.

My goals include to start living not just exsiting. To have a reasonable weight loss in the coming year. To incorporate the love of helping people with a new love of helping myself. To build my spirituality and faith. And to encourage others on their journey. Hope to get to know ya!

~More to come~
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  • KIMBERLY19732
    1872 days ago
    You can do it. I like what you say about stop surviving and start living. It is what your dearly departed loved ones would want for you! emoticon
    1872 days ago
    It's definitely time for you to take care of yourself! You have had way too many losses in your short life - so now it's time to do some good things for yourself. SparkPeople is a great place to meet "ONE"derful friends to help you along the way.

    Losing weight isn't easy - but you can do it!

    Take it one day at a step at a meal at a time...

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    1872 days ago
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