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Follow The Yellow Brick Road


Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Hi! My name is Susie and I am 41 years old. I hate to admit it but I have rarely ever finished anything. I truly have a very hard time making myself a priority and have often used helping other people as my crutch. I love people and I love being able to help. Over the years I have lost the people that were closest to me and I feel so lonely now. The most significant people in my life, my Sister (and best friend), my Son, my Daughter, my Mother and my Father have all passed away.

I have eaten my weight in grief over different tragedies in my life and find it so hard to let the past go and move beyond the pain. I often think of everyone that is gone and just sit and eat, eat, eat, and eat. But the truth now is that I am sick of feeling sorry for myself. I am tired of all the sadness. Somehwere there has to be some happiness.

I feel a lot like Dorothy right now having just landed somewhere over the rainbow. I am a little bit scared and excited to see new things. Mostly I just want to get to the "Emerald City"! I believe it's called "ONE"der land (ha,ha). I also hope to meet some really smart, caring and courageous friends along the way to help me reach my goals, stay motivated and make a change that will last a lifetime.

My goals include to start living not just exsiting. To have a reasonable weight loss in the coming year. To incorporate the love of helping people with a new love of helping myself. To build my spirituality and faith. And to encourage others on their journey. Hope to get to know ya!

~More to come~
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KIMBERLY19732 1/30/2013 10:46AM

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NEWDAYNEWAY 1/29/2013 7:44PM

  You can do it. I like what you say about stop surviving and start living. It is what your dearly departed loved ones would want for you! emoticon

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FERRETLOVER1 1/29/2013 2:16PM

    It's definitely time for you to take care of yourself! You have had way too many losses in your short life - so now it's time to do some good things for yourself. SparkPeople is a great place to meet "ONE"derful friends to help you along the way.

Losing weight isn't easy - but you can do it!

Take it one day at a time...one step at a time...one meal at a time...

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