Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Things have been going mostly well lately. I'm getting my eating under control, and not feeling deprived. I could definitely stand a few more workouts in my life, but I think I am doing alright for someone with a full-time job, a baby that doesn't ever sleep through the night, and an awful sinus infection. Still pushing through!
I get a little nervous writing this though, as every time I seem to become cognisant that I've gotten myself back on track, and I'm feeling good about things - I seem to sabotage myself. Maybe it's permission thing - like "you've done so well, you're entitled to those (*ahem*) Girl Scout cookies" or "you're still a little sore from yesterday's workout, let's catch up on those episodes of Homeland burning up your DVR instead of exercising." Maybe I still don't feel like taking care of myself is "me." Whatever it is, it's got to stop.
I SO look forward to this healthier lifestyle becoming habit. When ice cream doesn't sound as appealing because I've realized dairy doesn't make me feel my best (and because the frozen grapes in the freezer are much more yummy!). When working out becomes a real and permanent part of my to do list.
If I could just make it a month without any major backslides, if I can continue to be fearless, and make good choices a priority, I know I can solidify these habits. And then it won't be as hard, it will just become the new normal. I know what I want, I have the road map, now I just gotta get there. :)