Tuesday, January 29, 2013
OK, here it is: I've been having these very real feelings that I'm going to get into a bad car accident. I think that I'm worried it's going to happen on my way to or from school and that's why I "accidentally" overslept last week. My therapist and I had a discussion about it, and I stated that I really want to go back to school, so we worked it out that I should keep saying that I'm going to school no matter what.
Today was going to be the day that I finally went. I did everything right this morning. Got the snow and ice off the car and left to go to school. A few minutes later, I turned around and went back home. The roads weren't that bad from the snow and ice, but I had this gnawing feeling that this was going to be the day that the accident happened.
Now I'm debating wether I really want to go to school or not. Is my mind just playing tricks on me? Is my subconscious (sp?) playing tricks on me? Any thoughts or ideas? Any help is greatly appreciated.
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