Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Ugh... day two of working at 7am. Not only that but I'm working a different position now on Mondays and Tuesdays which means going up and down stairs and walking for 8 hours. Now don't get me wrong I'm not complaining, and it's not terribly difficult but it is exhausting because my body isn't used to that. I'm used to sitting at a desk for 8 hours. So the increase in activity is very good but will take some getting used to.
It's always frustrating to have to readjust to a new routine. It's harder to find time for everything. I'm extremely excited for my double date on saturday. We are going ice skating and getting sushi for lunch.
Life just keeps getting better and better. :)
So yesterday I kinda got made fun of by a lady for how often I was eating. I eat all day long, no kidding. I'm in the fridge maybe every hour to hour and a half. But what you have to realize is that when I go to eat something, it's like 1/2 a sandwhich, or an orange, banana, apple, or a beef stick and cheese. At the end of the day my food intake is well with in healthy amounts, it's just eaten in different increments. I have lost 50+ pounds by doing this and I will by no means let people's comments make me feel bad about how often I eat. And I have not been consistent with working out, so I know for a fact my progress is because of my eating habits.
There really isn't much going on elsewhere. Or emotionally. I'm still head over heels for Joe. I couldn't have asked for a more amazing man. I do wish he would quit smoking. He shares many of my views on life, and seems intrigued by the ones he hasn't thought of. He also wants to join me in my persuit of getting healthy. We may be a little in over our heads with how much we love each other already but I don't think it's a bad thing.
I do wish my divorce could be finalized already. I want to get processed and get done with boot camp already. I also want to fully cut ties with my ex. I want my old name back, and not to have any reason to answer to him for anything. I wish I could get rid of him from my mind too.
Is it just time? Is there something I should be doing to stop thinking about him? I don't feel any sort of attachment, it's just more of random memories that will pass through my mind, or the sound of his last name, having to sign it. Most of the time it floats out as fast as it floated in but I still don't like that on a daily basis, he pops up somehow. Maybe it will change once the divorce is over. I still have a little over a month before the next hearing. Not coming fast enough.
When I went bowling this last saturday, my in-laws were at the bowling alley and Joe was with me. They kept staring at him. Man was that awkward.