Yet another fall from grace. . .

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

I have been on an ugly eating binge for the past five days, but it stops TODAY. I've been stressing majorly over my son, and what I am slowly coming to accept may be an ADHD diagnosis. This has been painful and frustrating for both of us, but of course I turned to my old frenemy, FOOD, as usual. I actually feel physically sick from all the junk I've eaten, because I had gotten away from eating fast food and food heavily laden with fat. I've regained a couple of the pounds I had just lost, but hey, it could have been a lot worse. This isn't who I am anymore, and I simply must find another way to cope.

The situation is made tougher because of the lack of support by those closest to me. My significant other is truly old school, and believes that anything that manifests itself as a behavior problem in a child just needs to be handled by "a firm foot in the behind," and that the rest is all garbage. Which is pretty interesting, given that (though I'm not presently practicing), I am a clinically licensed social worker. But that's another story.

Regardless of the why's, this is where I am. The way I see it, there is nowhere to go but up! I have scheduled a complete assessment for my son, and I'm officially back on track with my eating and exercise, as of today. Please pray for us. Thanks in advance. Keep on sparking!!!
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  • SPARKLE1908
    Praying for your family...but you sound like you have a handle on things and are getting back on track! emoticon
    1818 days ago
    I will keep you in prayer and just know and remember, "This too shall pass"! Be blessed and keep sparking!! Also remember that prayer changes things, so make sure you are praying too..

    1818 days ago
  • HEALTHY156
    Hang in there, you are making changes to be the healthiest you can be. You've had a lot of stress. Forgive yourself and move forward. Your son is lucky to have you.
    1819 days ago
    hang in there!

    1819 days ago
    My thoughts and prayers are with you. Take good care of yourself. he needs a healthy mom.
    1819 days ago
    Sorry to hear about your son! But at least you know and you're going to get him assessed! Like you said, now you are back on track and focused! Stay on track and accomplish your goals! You can do it! Also, you and your family are in my prayers!
    1819 days ago
    You are not alone! My son most likely had ADD. We lived in the Fiji Islands during his school years, and they did not have any kind of programs for him. Nor meds, although we were reticent to go the med route (my husband is a chiropractor). So he struggled with that and a slight dyslexia.

    Because of this, it probably hindered his future scholastic ability. He did not end up attending college, had no desire. But he's now employed at Microsoft, as a supervisor at the tender age of 22. Because of his difficulties, he has learned to persist and work extra hard. He's brilliant and reads absolutely everything he can, rents documentaries on a variety of subjects, plays the stock market, and knows absolutely everything about a computer. He's amazing.

    So, the light is at the end of the tunnel - both for you and for your son.

    And get rid of the food. I just had a birthday party for my husband. As usual, I overthink it all and made 150 cupcakes, thinking that people would want 3 each - one of each flavor. I had 50 cupcakes left over. My treat! I just threw them all in the trash - nobody needs them, and if they are gone, I can't indulge!

    Thinking good thoughts for you! emoticon
    1819 days ago
  • 1935MARY
    My prayers are with you. This is a hard thing to deal with. My grandson lived with us for 5 years when he was little ,and he too was ADHD it was very frustrating,my hubby said pretty much,he just needed a swift kick in the but. I would let him watch 30 minutes of tv when he came home from school and start him on his homework, while I fix diner and check on him. After diner I would look at what he done and he would maybe have 1 or2 math problems done. I would sit with him for hours and try to help him. he would have to go to bathroom. break his pencil led ,on and on. What would take a normal kid 30 minutes to do would take him 3 hours with me trying to get him to do it. So I know where you are coming from. I think my hubby has it for he can not stay on one thing until he finishes it and somethings he gets done to a certain point and never finishes. Good luck on everything and Many prayers to you and your family.
    1819 days ago
    HOLD TIGHT today! You are the most important person in the world, so take care of YOU FIRST. If there is no healthy YOU, you won't be around to help anyone else.

    You can do it! You CAN do it! YOU CAN DO IT!!! emoticon
    1819 days ago
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