Monday, January 28, 2013
Well one of my challenges for this weekend was to forgive myself for something I did in the past. It took me pretty much the whole weekend to figure out what I wanted to forgive myself for. I've finally decided to forgive myself for being overly cautious. I'm not sure where it began but I've always been the type to pass up opportunities because I was a afraid of failure. You could pretty much say my life motto was "If you don't try, you can't fail." I know it was a horrible way to live. I'm not saying that I'm going to through all caution to the wind, a little caution is necessary. I've spent way too long protecting myself from rejection, now I'm realizing sure rejection may hurt but at the end of the day you can still just pick yourself up and move on to the next opportunity.
The next challenge is how will my life change when I reach my goal weight. Unfortunately I spent so much time trying to figure out what to forgive myself for I barely thought about this one at all. Well I hope to have gained a significant amount of confidence by the time I reach my goal weight. I'm already feeling stronger physically and emotionally. I can only see my strengths growing as I continue on this journey and realizing my weakness are not that bad. I want to be more outgoing and more of a risk taker by the time I reach my goals. I know these are both things that I can start working on now.
Okay now for a brief overview of my week in general. Today I completed day 15 of BeFit in 90 which means I'm falling behind. I plan on kicking it up and finishing all the workouts during the week since getting the TV on the weekends is not guaranteed and I won't be able to see the exercises on my laptop.
It's now the second week of BLC21 and I couldn't ask for a more positive and supportive team. At first I was worried about making my trackers public but it has only helped me thus far. Knowing that someone is watching my tracker is helping curb my snacking, even though it may not actually look like it sometimes. So thank you Mighty Mocha Hunters for being such a wonderful team.