Monday, January 28, 2013
So today at work we had to do inventory, and for anyone who hasn't had the privilege to work in retail, pretty much meant a day of wearing comfy clothes, counting and annoyance. I actually ate out for lunch having Chinese. Butterfly shrimp, and fried rice. And I even had a mountain dew. I know, naughty, naughty Shay. Frankly I think I did well for my calories for all except for the soda. I had less fried rice than I wanted, and kept putting my fork down between bites to give my stomach time to adjust to fullness or not. Hopefully it won't kick me back too far considering I was 227 this morning. I haven't officially recorded anything since Wednesday is my weigh in day. So crossies that that all goes well.
To be honest I'm a bit concerned about how well-liked I am at work cause honestly it feels like I have no allies with any of the managers. My own personal manager is a grouchy older woman who I'm positive could be a very nice lady outside of work, but at work it's very clear she has no intention of being someone's friend. The clothing manager and I don't get quite along because one day I had gotten a complaint against me. She did not handle talking to me very well. Now let me explain, I am the kind of person that when it comes to my work, I strive to improve. I will always ask questions, even if they are stupid, and I will always try to do better. Now, if I've done something wrong, Tell me. And tell me how to improve. Never, ever will it help me for you to try to make me feel bad. I feel bad. I feel horrible when people file complaints. I will go over and over the situation a million times trying to figure out which was the better approach. I will go through motions of guilt, shame, remorse, and finally acceptance. I messed up but it can be fixed. Period. But this manager didn't handle this that way, in fact she not only acted appalled ( which was a bit extreme for the actual complaint was about me coming off abrupt and rude) but tried to make me feel worse. That is not a motivator. I am not a child. A good manager listens to your side, tries to be understanding and then explains how are other ways to handle such situations. I wasn't trying to be rude, I would never TRY to be rude to anyone. But she didn't even seem to consider that.
Anywho, another manager dislikes me because I attempted to follow my training when selling her lunch and was trying to bag and tie it as I was trained. Quite honestly, she has never been very nice.
And even though work isn't suppose to be a popularity game, it feels like there's always a tension with most people there. I don't know. It's not exactly a hostile work environment. But it certainly is a stressful one.
Onward with TMI:
So mother nature is currently visiting. It couldn't have been more obvious than it was yesterday when the most powerful cravings for chocolate overcame me yesterday. I never crave chocolate. I don't even like most chocolates. I'm not really even a chocolate person. But there it was. And let me tell you guys, It tasted amazing. I indulged enough for 230 calories with some lindor chocolates and it. was. WORTH. IT. It really nailed the spot. Only concern I have right now is the fact that I keep having pains right where my left ovary is. I wonder if this is due to my new birth control or cramps. Either way I plan on making a dr.'s appointment to find out. Hopefully it's nothing serious.
Well I'm off to do some portraits for a friend. Frankly I'm not looking forward to it and have been putting it off for a while now. Either way, what must be done, must be done.
Weekly goal: Try 2 new cardio work out on the Kinect.
Reward: New headphones.