I've lived quite a long time wishing I was thin. I'd half-heartily go on a diet. But this is different. I've invested myself into this. I've bought the Spark book and the Spark Cookbook. I've made changes to what I eat, or have tried to, and have drastically changed what I drink. I drink more water in a day now than I drank either Mt. Dew or Sweet Tea.
This journey of changing my mindset, changing my food consumption, changing my drinking habits, changing my sedentary nature is not one for cowards.
I AM NOT A COWARD.
There have been tears. There will be more tears.
There have been setbacks. There will be more setbacks.
There has been pain. There will be more pain.
But, I'm not giving up. I am determined regardless of tears, setbacks, or pains that I will accomplish this goal that I set for myself.
I will be happy and I will be sad.
I will be enthusiastic and I will be contrite.
I will be joyous and I will be grumpy.
And I may be one or the other all within the same day.
I've been this way for 40+ years. I'm not going to snap my fingers, wrinkle my nose, wave a wand and magically become a size 6. But, I may become a size 6 with hard work, sweat, tears, pain, and a host of ups and downs with my emotions along the way. And that way is not tomorrow. It may not even be by the end of this year. But I must keep the train on it's track, even if it gets put on a waiting track, it needs to stay on track. And should it become derailed, then I must do everything possible to get it upright because, this is the time, not tomorrow, but now is the time and I WILL NOT GIVE UP.