Monday, January 28, 2013
My choice for winner of personal torture award...for me. I don't mind doing my civic duty or sitting for a jury but being the introvert with what is probably an social anxiety disorder this is torture for me...small rooms, very close quarters with lots of people who are strangers to me...internal inclination is to BOLT...externally I can keep this in check...but as someone who was relatively close to me once said...I have a very loud silence. I tend to shutdown, not make eye contact, not move and from moment to moment visualize myself elsewhere...to cope with the discomfort....and when they give us a break I get as far away as possible to still know what is going on in an unoccupied corner...just in case I need to climb a wall...lol.
So....just another angle of the prism that makes up my personality. In truth I like and I am pretty good with people when I am in a position to help them or I don't feel too close for comfort or threatened.
Now as pertains to staying on track...I carried lots of food bars and small bottles of water for those breaks and to get me through the day. I was ecstatic to get out at 2 something..and have time to rest and get my chores done.