Monday, January 28, 2013
I've been overweight my whole life and the idea of being at a healthy weight is so foreign to me. Today's QOTD about what you like most about your current body really got me thinking. Even though I do struggle with self-esteem issues and self-worth issues I do see good things about myself and my body. I do like my body shape. I would say I have an hourglass figure because i have large breasts and a shapely butt. It is definitely covered in some jelly rolls and jiggly bits, but I still like my shape. When I think of being at a healthy body weight I have no idea what that will look like for me. It scares me a LOT. I wonder what my face will look like thinned out. I wonder how clothes will fit. My biggest fear is how much loose skin I will have. I'm doing all that I can to prevent that, and i need to lose my anxiety over it. It is something I will deal with when I get there. I say when because I know I'll get there this time. This post is focusing on shallow changes in my appearance. I know the rewards will be so much greater than my appearance. However, there is still that fear of the unknown. Will I even recognize myself? Hopefully i'm not alone in being excited/worried about all the changes coming my way on this journey.