Allowing myself to "think skinny"

Monday, January 28, 2013

I've been overweight my whole life and the idea of being at a healthy weight is so foreign to me. Today's QOTD about what you like most about your current body really got me thinking. Even though I do struggle with self-esteem issues and self-worth issues I do see good things about myself and my body. I do like my body shape. I would say I have an hourglass figure because i have large breasts and a shapely butt. It is definitely covered in some jelly rolls and jiggly bits, but I still like my shape. When I think of being at a healthy body weight I have no idea what that will look like for me. It scares me a LOT. I wonder what my face will look like thinned out. I wonder how clothes will fit. My biggest fear is how much loose skin I will have. I'm doing all that I can to prevent that, and i need to lose my anxiety over it. It is something I will deal with when I get there. I say when because I know I'll get there this time. This post is focusing on shallow changes in my appearance. I know the rewards will be so much greater than my appearance. However, there is still that fear of the unknown. Will I even recognize myself? Hopefully i'm not alone in being excited/worried about all the changes coming my way on this journey.
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    I know I am concerned about hanging/baggy jowls on the face and other parts of me sagging. I've started doing facial muscle exercises to help combat the one, strength training to build up muscle where I hope to be losing fat and moisturizing lots as well as drinking lots of water. Here's to OUR success!! Way to go!!
    1874 days ago
    I'm with you on the fear of the unknown. Let's do this battle together. emoticon
    1874 days ago
    A couple weeks ago, I was working out at the gym and this older lady started talking to me. She made a comment to me that I think really applies to you as well because you seem to have a similar shape as me. She said, "I can tell looking at you now that you've got a gorgeous shape and will look amazing when you reach your goal." This wasn't a lady I know or have seen since. She had no reason to say that or any indication that I was concerned about it.

    But it's true. You will have an amazing shapely curviness to you because that's the way you're made.

    Extra skin may take some time once you reach your goal during maintenance time. Toning up and really making everything look tight and amazing. But I'm confident that losing weight the RIGHT way is the biggest key to not being landed with a boat load of extra skin at the end.

    You can do it and you'll be a smexeh mama when you get there!
    1874 days ago
    I had never heard that about the excess skin thing Tara! That is definitely good to know. Yeah in order to prevent the extra skin I do lots of weight training to build muscle. I have the most doubt about my arms. lol Here's to hoping the weight training helps!!!
    1875 days ago
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    First of all, I'm jealous of your shapely butt! LOL. I am worried that I'm not even going to have a butt when I'm done!! At the top of my list to start after BLC 17 is some type of booty exercises to, well, get a booty!

    And I hear you on the excess skin. So far so good, but I am definitely worried about what is going to happen after the next 45 pounds! I read an article a long time ago that basically said that if your excess skin is thicker than the skin on the back of your hand, then it isn't just excess skin- it's fat, too, and it will improve significantly with more weight loss. It said that a lot of people get to a healthy weight, still have this skin/fat, and think it must be just skin because, after all, they're at a healthy weight, but really the problem is that they don't have enough muscle; therefore they should work on building muscle and decreasing their body fat %.

    I haven't been to my goal weight since gaining all this weight, so I have no idea, but it will be interesting to see! And if I get there and still aren't quite satisfied, then I guess I'll just keep on going!
    1875 days ago
    Same here! I am always so self-conscious of how people view me, being as big as I am! I wonder if this will always be there even after losing weight?
    1875 days ago
    I still get that way. I have lost a lot of weight. I worry what I would look like when I get to my goal. So far...the changes...are emoticon
    1875 days ago
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