Monday, January 28, 2013
I was SO sick yesterday! It was awful! I actually asked my parents to come take my daughter for the day. I don't think I've ever done that before. I mean, she's stayed with them when we've planned for it or once in a while she'll ask to or they'll call and ask to take her somewhere. But I think this is the first time I've ever just sent a message saying please come get her. So they did and she had a great day and was very good for them but that's not what I'm here to discuss.
No, yesterday was also the first time in quite a long time that I did not get dressed. I didn't even put on a bra! I just crashed on my futon wearing green velour pants and a raggedy old nightshirt. Now this shirt was given to me to wear in the hospital when I had my son. He's 17 now. It has a lot of wear and tear on it, a couple of small holes here and there. It's way beyond its retirement age. The neckline is very large and it has a split in the front where it used to be held together with 3 or 4 adorable buttons, long since lost.
What my fever-addled brain noticed -- and would not have if not for such a loose-fitting shirt -- is that the little bit of flab between my breasts is gone. There was never a lot of flab there but now there's none!
So today I've been thinking about any other changes in my body. My necklaces seem to hang a little longer now. I actually have biceps! I haven't taken Zegerid in months and have hardly had any heartburn. Not only do my thighs feel tight to the touch but a couple of nights ago while doing my yoga I actually saw a bit of space between them! When I'm lying on my side and put my arm on my hip, it feels closer to the bed/lower. I guess it's the angle in my shoulder because I'm not sure what that's all about. I've gone from a pant size where a 22W was getting too tight to where a 10 is still tight but buttons/zips! I am, for now, still a size 12 and thrilled about it! My XXL shirts that used to be a little uncomfortably snug now hang off me like a swimsuit cover. When I'm stressed I want to go for a walk instead of an ice cream. I no longer want to reward myself or my children for good behavior with sugary treats and junk food.
This morning when I weighed the scale said 171 (I only record my Sunday weight and step on the scale throughout the week partly out of OCD and also to monitor trends). That is 50lbs off my highest weight last summer and 31lbs to my goal! Originally I wanted to reach my goal weight by my birthday, May 24. That is still possible at 2-3lbs per week. But right now I'm not sure that the date really matters. I'm making a lot of good choices and kind of enjoying the process. I know I'll be in that healthy BMI range by then, whether I've reached my ultimate goal or not. And then I'll get to play with exercise/nutrition plans to find the best way for me to maintain!
Anyway, if you made it this far, thanks for reading my rambling. My brain is still yucky and fuzzy and achy from this congestion I've had so I'll probably read this later and think "why did I do that?" I just wanted to celebrate some of these changes!