Monday, January 28, 2013
I'm just not motivated anymore. I have plenty to motivate me - wedding coming up, 20 year class reunion after that, healthier lifestyle, but I just can't seem to shake this ... it's winter, it's cold, I don't want to go out (to the gym, but for dinner, okay!). Seasonal depression? Eh, maybe. But it seems to be more than that - I just don't want to! And the sad sad sad thing is, I know this is SO bad for me. I know all the great things exercise does for me - including the fact that a great workout makes me feel better and motivates me even more.
It's affecting me in more ways than one - I've been super-stressed at work this month and I know exercise helps with stress and I still can't bring myself to get dressed, go to the gym and work out. My energy level is way down, I'm tense, I'm not sleeping well, etc. And I know exercise helps me with all of this.
Every few months, I seem to get this way regarding my exercise routine - I start asking myself, "What's the point?" or "Why bother?" or "Why am I doing this?" and I just spiral down. Maybe I need to start there - ask myself why I'm doing this and give myself more of an answer than "Healthy lifestyle." Maybe I should look into why I want a healthy lifestyle. Write it down and focus on it.
Haven't measured myself in weeks, but I did weigh in on Sunday - back to 145 lbs.
It's just so hard for me to stay motivated. Any ideas?