Ok warning a bit of a wine , a bit of a what do you think, a bit of a throw my hands in the air.
I am gaining weight >> I've been trying to loss 10 for a very long time was maintaining great at 144 for many months than I changed some things that I thought would help
1. since January 2 i log all my food weight and measure 90 % I've missed or had to guess maybe 2 days and 5 meals in that time. We don't eat out much so I really know what I'm eating because I cook it.
2. upped my protein by added egg whites and beans of all kinds to my diet.
3. increased my steps not sure by how much exactly but around 4000 steps per day (that a guess from about 8 months ago when I used to use pedometer I now have a fitbit)
so anyway these things have not helped just the opposite. I'm up about 4 to 5 lbs

part of me just wants to cry when it was two pounds I changed my exercise to make it harder
cardio on the treadmill that adds speed work, on days that I lift I've added more balance work.
But that hasn't help either I up about 2 more.
Somethings I think I shouldn't complain, I am supper fit without (hopefully sounding like I'm bragging) I'm in the best shape of my life, I look good, some of my jeans are a size 6( that one blows me away.) But here is the problem Well 2 one my BMI # I'm 5'4 " I am overweight at 149 lbs, at 144 I was just at average. I really really can't let go of the thought and the need to stay under 140 to feel like a got this weight , food thing under control I have plenty of room on the BMI scale to loss weight! I am by no means too skinny could be as low as 111 lbs and still be in healthy range so 140 so very reasonable goal .
so what to do 1. eat more assuming that when I was not counting calories and logging my food I was eating more to stay at 144(Have a hard time think I would have been eating less) I have also increase intensity of exercise and calories burned had increase, but only about 200 or so a week. but am I increasing muscle mass? because of added protein and intensity. 2. so should I just cut back on the protein which does help build muscle. 3. Go with the normal easy thought calories in calories out and decrease my calories right now I average about 1800 to 1900
Another added piece info I had a fitness evaluation done in November Average 5'4" persons RMR is 1265 because my lean muscle mass is good (muscle using more fuel than fat) i burn 1454 at a minimum
This is what is driving me crazy I have so many numbers running through my head that I don't know what to do. Thought about sparks coaching but I don't think they get that involved maybe a trip to the Dr and ask for dietitians help but really will he send me I'm fit and healthy is there
any other options that i could afford to get help??????????????????
Going crazy If you made it this far bless you any ideas or thoughts would be greatly appreciated.