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Pay Attention to Me!

Monday, January 28, 2013

I've always been an attention whore. Not in a drama-filled, clobber the other kids kind of way. Nope, in a "LOOK I'M SO AWESOME YOU HAVE TO LIKE ME NOW! OMG! RIGHT? RIGHT?!!!" way.

Since digging deep and realizing exactly what was going on, I've improved on that, but I still love attention. That's one of the reasons I don't really drink: all of my slightly-repressed "ME ME ME!"s come out and play. I start showing off in every way I can, in hopes that someone will recognize the awesomeness that is me :)

I still prefer to excel at everything I do, but I have come to accept that there will always be things that I'm not good at that I still enjoy doing. So while I rarely "practice" things, I spend less time obsessing over how well i am doing and more time doing them and improving that way. Am I a mediocre foosball player? Yes, but I'm getting better and -- more importantly -- more consistant. Am I only a mediocre climber? Yes, but if you have seen the progression (and one of my friends recently noted), you'd be astonished.

I still want to impress people. I talk about my hectic life schedule because I want people to appreciate that I do a lot of things! Yes, I want them to come out and do these things with me, but more to the point, I still have the niggling thought in the back of my head that it's really about wanting them to wish they were doing those things WITH me. Yep! I want people to miss me and feel like they're missing out. Does that make me evil? I feel kindof juvenile, really, when it comes down to it. *sigh* Ah well.

My four-year-old self says, "I'm awesome! I swear! You should love me too!" I suppose there's nothing wrong with letting her out every once in a while :P

Any other show-offs out there?
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SPARTAN40 2/1/2013 5:16PM

    Every person needs to grab a little bit of their inner 4 year old self. The one that knew they could sing and knew they could draw and didn't care if they couldn't do these things perfectly well. They had fun doing them.

Keep having fun!

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KONRAD695 1/28/2013 5:49PM

    If you ever go out, I'm going with you. It would be nice to have some competition. emoticon

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