Monday, January 28, 2013
Hi...I'm back :) As mu page introduction references, I have been a member of SparkPeople for several years but I have never been a part of the community. I love reading the articles and other members' posts, but I'd never been a part of things, myself. I believe the motivation and inspiration gained from the members is just what I need.
I began my serious weight loss and healthier eating, 10 November 2008. I prayed that I would get to the place where I did not feel my best if I did not work out. I'd finally arrived to that place and I loved it. I had NEVER exercised and was so proud that I was "one of those people" who enjoyed exercising. From the beginning, I knew I had to exercise in the morning or I would have every excuse NOT to do it after work.
While I never reached my ultimate goal, I did lose 52 lbs and was 15 lbs away before I had to have unexpected surgery. After that, I gained back 20 lbs. I was so sad and disappointed in myself. Additionally, I slowly began to have knee and lower back pain. Because I abhor gym classes and personal trainers yelling at me, I began my exercise routines by myself and believe, began with bad form, causing my lower back pain. The knee pain was caused by arthritis (what?! I was only 40 years old at the time) and has gotten progressively worse.
Admittedly, I took a several month break from exercising and boy did I feel it!
So, where am I now? I am still holding on to those 20 lbs that I gained after surgery, plus the 15 lbs I was away from my goal, originally. I have reset my brain to working out, six days per week. Per doctor's orders, I had to take a break from the treadmill, so I began with my DVDs once again. The knee is causing me great pain (the doctor thinks it may be a torn ligament so an MRI has been scheduled). And now, I am beating myself up because I am not able to work out as long/hard as I had before, due to the pain. That frustration causes me to not want to work out at all because what goes on in my head is: I USED to do this 30 minute sculpting DVD with no problem and now I'm breathing heavily after 10 minutes. I know it my head I have to build back up to where I USE to be and also push beyond that, but it breaks my heart. I FEEL these additional 20 lbs on me and again, am beating myself up on how I even allowed those pounds back into my life.
BUT, it is a new day and I am pushing onwards and upwards. So, SparkPeople community, I'm turning to you to hear your stories, motivational ones, inspirational ones, tell me if you have fallen and gotten back up. Send your positive energy my way, please :)
It is my goal to write in this blog at least once per week. Maybe next time, I'll add pictures. Haha!!
Thanks in advance for any comments!