Monday, January 28, 2013
I wouldn't say that I suffer from Seasonal Affective Disorder, but I do notice that when we have a stretch of bad weather (either cold or rain) that keeps me indoors for a long stretch of time, I become very moody and cranky. That is where I am today. I am just feeling generally anxious, like I am on the brink of crying for no real reason. We have had run of really cold weather. So I haven't been taking my walks at lunch. Those breaks are so key to my mental health. Simply getting away from my desk, but staying inside is not the same thing. A few minutes ago, I was checking something on my calendar and got so upset. I always look forward to my kettlebells class at noon on Mondays. That class, more than any other, sets the tone for how the week will go. It popped up that I had a dentist appointment at noon instead. I was so mad that I would schedule it for this time. Turns out, that I was looking at the wrong date. The dentist appointment isn't until Thursday. But for the brief moment when I thought this is true, I was mad and wanted to cry all at the same time. This weekend, I couldn't psych myself up for a run, so I decided to jump rope instead. After about 20 minutes, I stopped jumping at the end of a song and noticed that my jump rope, which is made of wire encased in plastic, had broken in two. I don't know if it was the cold or the hard slapping against the ground, but I had never heard of a jump rope breaking that way before. It is suppose to warm up this week and it cannot come too soon for me. I hate feeling so out of sorts.