Monday, January 28, 2013
I don't know how to be at home with a back injury and not eat myself out of house and home. I have been eating everything there is in sight and I need to stop it! I am the heaviest I have been in YEARS and I am so sad about it. I don't know what to do. I don't feel confident about myself. I have been having issues in my marriage because of it. Too many things to name. My back has been bad now for 3 weekends... so about 2 weeks, and I have gained 12 pounds in just 2 weeks! That is insane! My mom said some of it could be the medication, but no, I won't use that as an excuse. And I hate taking the medication!! I don't want to take it, but if I don't, I get horrible pain within 24 hours that won't go away since the pain meds have to get into your blood stream. Ugh, long story. But I just feel like I can't do this. But I HAVE TO!!!! In 4 weeks is the Princess Half Marathon and I am still going to walk it even if I didn't meet my weight loss goals. I haven't even met my walking goals.... The furthest I have been is 6.82 miles. Not far enough for needing to go 13.1 miles. I will try again this weekend.