Monday, January 28, 2013
So my husband and I moved our family to Haiti for one year to work with orphans. It is embarrassing being one of the fattest people on this whole island. People here are thin. Starvation thin. There isn't enough food and the food that is available is either poor quality local food, or extremely expensive imported food.
I spent the first 6 months here totally giving up on dieting. I made starchy, rice and pasta filled meals since that was all we could afford/find. For example, yesterday I tried to buy asparagus at a grocery store. 26 US dollars for a couple of spears. My kids love asparagus, but I just couldn't spend the money, we have very little money as it is. I settled on broccoli, we eat that twice a week, otherwise most of our veggies are canned.
Positives: no drive-thrus to fight with. The closest grocery stores are 45 minutes or so away, and the roads are dangerous to drive. Lots of activity, I have to clean the house every day and make most things from scratch.
Negatives: Hard to find healthy food. No electricity most days gets me depressed. Homeschooling my kids has me sitting a lot. (That one I can change!)
We will be back in the States in 4-5 months, and I want to spend these months getting thinner and staying positive. I am doing workout videos in the mornings using my precious computer battery, getting back active on Sparkpeople, and hoping that I can see this through.
I am so sick of being chubby defining how I think about myself. I am tired of limiting myself, of being embarrassed, of wondering if people are secretly making fun of me. Time to change.