Monday, January 28, 2013
Ok so I found myself to be on that path of “dating” again after about five years of not trying and being in a one-sided relationship. My friends mostly decided for me that I need to start dating and I really have not put much thought into it because I have been really happy with doing my own thing and really trying to improve my health in 2013. I haven’t thought much about dating and I can tell you that the reason I think I avoided it so much was because of my constant fear of rejection. I don’t like the idea of putting myself out there on display and getting friend zoned which seems to be my problem. I got set up on a double date yesterday with my best friend, her boyfriend and his coworker. It went really well, I had a lot of fun and looked really cute but I could tell he wasn’t into me and I wasn’t into him. He was just very like dry humor and sort of reserved where I am more of a free spirit, carefree and well very talkative. I don’t know where to go from here I sort of liked the idea of being on dates but the rejection thing still irks me. It’s not easy explaining to guys that you aren’t a size two or working on losing weight some guys around here are just so full of the jersey shore image of women that it’s sort of disheartening. Anyways enough of being debby downer, here is what I discovered about myself last night that I didn’t realize….I am completely beautiful the way I am, I have a striking face, nice curves and a great smile so that’s something to keep informing myself and if guys are that conceited than they are not worthy of all that I have to offer. I also took a few pictures last night and took one full body shot that I am actually ok with seeing (that has been a really hard challenge for me) I cant get myself to look at or see full body shots…O well here’s to a happier 2013.
The shirt is not something I would typically wear and my friend made me try it on...I must say that color looks fantastic on my skin tone! O and ignore the socks lol my feet were cold after bowling.