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Seriously getting Serious!

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Okay, so I've been slacking lately with my nutrition. Since I bumped up my calorie intake, I've been abusing it. I decided to increase my caloric range to a max of 1600/day... but 1600 has turned into 1700, and then 1800... to 2000! Ughhh... what am I doing to myself?? I've worked so hard to get to this point: losing 20lbs, dropping 8 points in my body fat percentage, seeing more muscle tone and definition, having a teensy, tiny bit of abs poking through... why do I want to shroud my stomach in fat again, WHY?

It comes down to... what am I afraid of? Why do I use food as a crutch, as a distraction, as a security blanket? Why not get SERIOUS about this... No excuses! I have to finally treat my over-eating as the addiction that it is. Why else would I feel such shame and guilt over sneaking in those handfuls of granola, peeking over my shoulder to be sure nobody catches me in the act? Or slice a piece of cake, and wash the knife and dish immediately after consuming it so there is no evidence in the sink of this "devious" binging... or even better, not using a plate... HAH!

This is pathetic, and pitiful... and certainly no way to treat this majestic body that I have been given. I must start having respect for "my temple." It's the only one I've got. And I want it to feel great and look good for YEARS to come!

WOO! Glad I could get all that out... emoticon

So as usual, there will be a plan. This time a plan that I will stick to. Because I deserve it, my body deserves it.

NUTRITION: I'm going to stick with my increased calorie range, including the higher protein level (100-130grams/day)... however, I will not abuse this and make a habit of eating over! I'm going to aim for 1500 calories/day, right in the middle. The macronutrient breakdowns will remain as I had previously adjusted them on my nutrition tracker.

FITNESS: Continue with 45 min cardio/day. Total body circuits on M/W/F. Abs every day (200+ crunch variations). Now here comes the fun part... I'm ready to try Insanity again, a Month 1 do-over. I already did the Day 1 Fit Test tonight! I think I'll try an accountability blog as I work through each of the days in Month 1.. and it might get redundant, but I need it right now to stay motivated and feel like I have "someone" to answer to.

OTHER: This involves school and personal relationships, mainly. Keeping up with homework assignments is the #1 goal in the school category! Don't slack off basically. I'm still a week behind in my online class, but that is going to change right now! Then there's the BF, who I have been neglecting at times. This also is going to change. I've got to start appreciating, since he's been totally supportive of me through this whole journey. Now it's my turn to give him the motivation he needs, since he said he's ready to get back to his health! Woohoo! So no more sabotaging him with the treats that I bake/cook and feed to him because I know I can't indulge in them myself... that is so naughty of me!

Alright, now I'm going to say something really cheesy and motivational to myself (don't cringe)....

It's time to make 2013 THE YEAR TO REMEMBER!!! emoticon emoticon
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    Its hard...i can be an emotional eater..and well lately, i've been emotionally eating............and drinking a bit too much!!
    1871 days ago
  • BELLE72
    Great attitude gorgeous! Sounds like you're on the right track! Have a great day!
    1880 days ago
    Nice blog. I often feel the same way. I get to a certain point and regress, and feel shame, and loathe myself. We need to stop sabotaging our own efforts! emoticon
    1880 days ago
    1880 days ago
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