Sometimes I get scared..
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Sometimes I start to think about my goal, about how close I'm getting to it, and get very nervous. What if it's not what I thought it would be? What if I can't maintain? And then I remember that it's only a number on a scale and look at how far I've come. Nothing can be worse than going back to the beginning.
And SOMETIMES I get really really anxious thinking about my second 6K coming up this summer! What if I can't talk myself through the obstacles like I did last time?! What if I chicken out at the starting line (like I almost did last year!) What if I don't beat my time?! What if I don't know what to wear! What if I invite a support group this time and they see me break my ankle or something?! AHHH!!
"Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your goal." – Henry Ford
Seeing as I make a living by driving all day... it occurs to me that as drivers, we look ahead on the road to prepare our vehicle for what's next. Of course I'm not going to go to race-day unprepared. I'll have an outfit picked out a month ahead probably. And I'm bringing a support team this time because I need them there. Last year I went alone and I deeply regretted it. Luckily the announcer was egging me on, but there should have been others. Of course, it was my choice. I wasn't sure how things were going to go seeing as it was my first time doing this sort of thing. Now I know better. And I *will* beat my time because there's fewer obstacles this year and I'll be more prepared with my running.
Sometimes I get scared...
And talk myself through it. Then at the end, it doesn't seem so bad.