Sunday, January 27, 2013
So, this week has been completely liberating. I finally have a positive outlook on life and I'm motivated to do some serious self improvement. Anyway, I've been jogging at about 5.3 mph for AT LEAST a mile each day. In addition to that, I've been lifting weights, doing squats and lunges, and fitness classes such as Cardio Sculpt and Turbo Kick. I was for sure that I was focused.
Now, I'm in college, so, when my funds are low it is quite easy to not eat too much a day (because I have to ensure that I have food for the next day). So anyway, our refund checks came yesterday, and BOY DID I GO CRAZY!!! I've had Longhorn's Parmesan Encrusted Sandwich meal with the free loaf, an entire quart of General Tso's Chinese Chicken, AND a footlong Meatball Marinara from Subway. I really have no words to explain why. I wasn't even hungry. One time, I woke up at 4 in the morning to finish off the chinese chicken. With all of that, I've still managed to lose weight this week. So, imagine how much more I could have lost had I NOT BEEN SO GLUTTONOUS!!! Ugh
Anyway, I'm terrified of going down the wrong road. In about a year, I will be embarking on a new journey. Hopefully I will find a job as a teacher and meet my future husband. However, I really want to become the person that I'm going to be for the rest of my life and I'm terrified that I'm slowly tip-toeing back down the wrong path.
I know that no one can do it for me. I guess this is just a cry for some additional motivation. I know that I can do this. I've learned that my mind is EXTREMELY powerful and can effect even my emotional state. So, I'm determined to become better! I won't beat myself up for making these terrible mistakes because you know what..... TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY!