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I’m Afraid of Your Rejection

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Why? Because I am going to do something I never EVER thought I would do… I am going to have gastric bypass surgery. Why?

* Because I have diabetes
* Because I have high blood pressure
* Because I have high cholesterol
* Because I have thyroid issues
* Because I am well over 100 pounds overweight
* Because I will be 52 this year
* Because I have been completely unsuccessful with losing weight and keeping it off
* Because I need to have hernia surgery that is quite dangerous as I am now because of how it would need to be performed and how much foreign material (mesh) would need to be used to close the tears
* Because my doctors have recommended it
* Because it will help me to live longer

I wish I had researched this more with regard to myself before now. It is not giving up or taking the easy way out in any way, shape, or form. Just having the surgery will not automatically make the pounds melt away; I still must make good choices and exercise. It is a tool that is going to force me to make the lifelong changes I need to make. It is not at all “easy,” but for me, it is necessary.

The earliest I would have the surgery is April, but it may not happen until June. I am still in the part of the process where I am doing what is necessary to get authorization from the insurance company, so I am meeting with a dietician and a psychologist. With the dietician, the purpose is to ensure that I will be able to successfully modify my diet after surgery. To that end I am trying to eat within my calorie range and work back to exercising for at least thirty minutes, five times per week. I am also beginning to work towards making the changes that will be mandatory after I have the surgery, such as eliminating sugar and caffeine from my diet. I am also working on my issues with food and emotions so that I have a plan in place to be successful. The purpose of my upcoming meeting with the psychologist is to be evaluated to see if I am a good candidate from her perspective. I fully understand that this is not a magic pill – it is a tool and I must do the work.

I feel so confident and full of hope now that I have decided to move forward with this. I am still here on Sparks, lurking for now, but I am still here. I am logging food and exercise, because those are the keys to everyone’s success. I value the friendships I’ve made on Sparks and I hope to continue to have you as friends. If my new path causes us to part ways, I completely understand and I wish you well. But I hope that we can continue to support each other in our journeys to good health.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
SUSUSUZZZIE 2/17/2013 10:03PM

    I can't believe I didn't see your blog until now. UGH!

I will never judge you or anyone for making choices they need. It's your choice and you have to do what you need. This isn't an easy decision and I wish you the best!

I'm hear for you - anything I can do. Please keep us posted! Good luck with all the preparations and everything!

Many hugs, thoughts and prayers being sent your way!

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_VALEO_ 1/29/2013 1:00PM

    Rejected by SP members? I don't think so!
You might already know that there are teams here that can help you, if you need more support or talk with members who also have a gastric bypass..

It takes a lot courage to do what you are going to do, and this is definitely not the easy way out.
My cousin had two gastric bypass surgeries. The first one didn't really work for her (she was not ready), and the second has really helped her to lose weight (thanks to a diet! as you said, this is not magical!), and it has been a life saver for her!

You made some choices for your well-being and health, and took some important decisions, noone can ever reject or criticize you. Stay strong with your choices!
And remember you're doing it for yourself, for your health, not for the others!

Wish you the best!

Comment edited on: 1/29/2013 1:03:32 PM

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SPARTAN40 1/29/2013 11:01AM

    Wishing you the best. If people reject you - ignore them. Stick wtih the rest of us.

BTW - as to gastric bypass with diabetes: this will have an immediate positive impact on your blood sugar sometimes even getting them back into normal ranges right away. That's because you're eating so much less and you're eating the "right" stuff.

Do you what you need. We'll be here for you.

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FITMARY 1/29/2013 6:20AM

    Rejection by Spark People? I don't think so!!!
Do what you need to do. This may be the start of a whole new life!

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SHEENADEE 1/27/2013 6:34PM

    Wishing you all the best.

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    I'm gonna mail you. ;-)

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FRANCO1230 1/27/2013 6:26PM

    If anyone does reject you...shame on them. They, like I, have never walked a day in your shoes. You do what you have to for YOU...end of story! Like you said, it doesn't automatically make it the easy way still must exercise & make positive choices...that's more mental and harder than anything. Wishing you peace in your heart and satisfaction with your long as you have that, no matter what others' (negative) opinions are. Surround yourself with only those that will be there to cheer you on.

Behind you all the way... emoticon

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HDHAWK 1/27/2013 5:32PM

    Wishing you all the best in your pursuit of better health however you choose to accomplish that!

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PURPLESPEDCOW 1/27/2013 4:33PM

    You do want you need to do for you. No judgement from me about the surgery. I had a friend who did it and was very successful. And yes it still took a lot of hard work after. Different eating patterns and amounts. I wish you all the luck in the world.

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DULCINEA54935 1/27/2013 3:47PM

    I have several friends who opted for the surgery and are both doing well years later. Good luck.

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PICKIE98 1/27/2013 3:11PM

    I think I missed something in the translation of your blog. Where does the rejection fit in because you need surgeries?
How can one purposely injure themselves enough to have to have hernia surgery?
I guess the biggest question here for me, is:

This site is not a judgmental, gossipy, chastising thing.. we are all here to encourage and help one another while getting OURSELVES healthy. I sure hope your insurance goes through and you are able to get all your parts working for your new lifestyle!! Bottom line,right? Best of luck!

You just do what needs to be don for yourself, knowing that we are here for support, venting,etc..

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