Sunday, January 27, 2013
The last week+ has been CRAZY for me. I've barely gotten any steps in and I haven't logged food and I haven't logged in to SP. OF COURSE I also didn't lose weight last week and I'm two days away from a weigh-in and likely haven't lost, either. Not good. I have to keep the momentum going.
So here I am. Cleaning day today and a bit later, I have to go to my friend's house to pick my car up so I'm going to walk there (about 2.5 miles). I know I haven't even been hitting 10k steps, but I think I need to kick it up to a 15k goal. At that range, with logging, there's no excuse for not losing weight.
I was at a housewarming party yesterday and one of the guests is pregnant. She's 34. It took them FOUR years of very actively trying to conceive (OPKs, timed intercourse, Clomid, herbs, acupuncture, etc). I love stories like hers. They give me hope! She didn't even ovulate....at all....and she's now carrying twins. Journaling has shown me that another woman's pregnancy has nothing to do with MY chances of having kids. Every time another woman gets pregnant, I think of it as her success and my failure and I get depressed and beat myself up about it. But this journey isn't about anything but my future child. An unproductive cycle is not about failure, since failure can only be determined when the journey ends without success. But I see a rainbow at the end of MY journey. Maybe my journey will take longer than another's, but I count myself lucky that I have a wonderful job, husband, home and life to offer to that child when he decides to join us!