Sunday, January 27, 2013
Long time no post! This one's probably going to be a longer one. This past week was just go go go. I ended up going out literally every day except Thursday when I just crashed (after doing a workout). Monday and Friday started and ended the week with a hospital visit. On Monday, taking bf to hospital to check things out and on Friday, a client was in the hospital and I spent 5 hours making arrangements for her and visiting her.
Didn't end up doing much workouts this week but I didn't intend to with the business. Happy I got one in on Thursday and plan to be more regular this coming week.
Had a couple of honest discussions with the bf recently about some not so good feelings I've been having about our relationship. I've been trying to hold the most serious ones in because his work life has been tumultuous and I've been trying really hard to not add needless stress to it. I do feel a lot better having been able to get it out though. He admitted he had been dropping the ball on a few things and said he was still happy in our relationship and intended to work on things. I'm more optimistic about things and feel like a weight has been lifted. I realize things aren't going to get better without effort on both our parts, but I'm willing to do what I can and am happy to hear from him that he's in too.
Still been doing a meditation too, although like the working out, it took a bit of a backseat, but i did maintain some. Reading up about Buddhism as well, which is inspiring me further and feeding that part of me.
I also tried something yesterday. Don't want to say what yet in case it doesn't work out - I'm pretty sure it will, but call me superstitious or whatever, I want to hear back first :) It's something I've been wanting to do for a while and just haven't bothered to. Scary! Even if it doesn't work out, i am very happy with me trying it and with my effort and I know that's what matters
Was also offered and accepted some extra work (meaning extra money) at my job. Don't think it will be too many extra hours, but it means expanding my skills and some extra money which is always useful.
I've heard so much about the whole karma or whatever you want to call it, fate, "what you give is what you get", that kind of philosophy. When I was down, the hits just kept on coming. And I've been doing so well for so long and it feels like the good things now keep coming. It's such a weird experience. Sometimes I even feel a bit bad because I know other people who aren't having the same luck. I used to feel like everything was kind of random but now I'm not so sure.