Sunday, January 27, 2013
There are times, when I'm laying in bed, or just sort of daydreaming, that I wonder what it would be like to be at the end of my weight loss journey instead of at the beginning. What would it feel like? What would I be doing? And so I thought I would write about a few of those things I could see myself doing.
First I think I would have more confidence in myself. I could walk in to any store and try on clothes. I could go into any activity or party, and feel like I was my best. I wouldn't feel like I had to hide on the sidelines or hope no one noticed me.
Second I could participate in any activity I wanted to. I could ride my bike wherever I wanted to go, play tag with my son, go hiking on all the different trails in my area, be a part of the church basketball teams, or even run a 5 K. Nothing would hold me back.
Third - I would never have to feel embarrassed by being out of breath after climbing the stairs or going for a walk.
Fourth - I would have more energy, which means more of the projects around my house would get done, because I wouldn't have to sit and rest between things I need to do.
Fifth - If I decided to go back to work when my son is in 1st grade, I would feel comfortable in a job interview, because I wouldn't feel like someone is judging me because of my weight.
Sixth - I would feel less stress and anxiety, because the exercise would help me deal with those emotions and struggles a lot better.
Seventh - I would feel happy, because I actually stuck to my goals and accomplished them, proving to myself I can do anything I put my mind to.
Eighth - My relationships would be stronger, because I wouldn't be worried about my weight getting in the way, or crying over how I just couldn't lose weight. And instead my focus can be on the other person.
Ninth - I would be able to give more service to other people, because I would have the strength and energy to help others, and I wouldn't be caught up in Self - Pity for myself and my situation.
Tenth - I will have made healthy living an everyday part of my life, so I won't ever have to go back to being the fat girl, but instead, I will have the healthy habits that will make me healthy. And in so doing will help my family be healthy as well.
Those are just ten things I see for myself at the end of this journey. I know the feeling of accomplishment and happiness is probably even more than I can imagine, and what I will be able to accomplish will be more than I can imagine. So I can't wait to get there and experience it.
I admit that even in the last couple of weeks, I have started to feel just a hint of some of those things, and I really like the taste and feel of it. So here is to becoming the future me!