Sunday, January 27, 2013
So everyone is writing about their motivation, and there are lots of articles and videos on SP about it. Most people have a whole list of good reasons: kids, family members, running a marathon, living better, climbing Mount Everest, etc. Very good.
My motivation is much simpler. Life is nice, but whenever it's my time, it's my time. I've hopefully made a difference in quite a few people's lives, especially my students, so no regrets, no unfinished business. (Other than cleaning house, bringing my affairs in order, and finding a teacher to take over my German program.) I've seen a lot of the world and had my fair share of experiences. I don't have a husband or kids, so I think everyone will get along quite nicely without me. Of course, I will probably live for many years or decades more, but there is no telling for sure. So, a longer life span and a higher quality of life are nice side effects I will appreciate, but not really my motivation.
So, why am I determined to get my diabetes under control and get healthy? Very simple. I don't want to go blind. I'm terrified of going blind. I've had bad eyesight since I was little, but luckily, so far everything can be corrected with glasses or contacts. Diabetes, however, can cause blindness, and that's the only thing I'm really afraid of. (Going deaf is right behind on that list, but luckily, that's one of the few things that's not a direct complication of diabetes.)
My eyesight is my livelihood; without it, I probably wouldn't be able to teach anymore, and I would not be able to drive and live alone. I value my independence above everything else, and I would hate to have to live with a bunch of other people and depend on others for daily needs.
So, I need to get healthy and get my diabetes under control permanently to keep my eyesight as good as possible. There's my motivation. Simple.