Sunday, January 27, 2013
I haven't been blogging since I have been pretty busy and use the time I have to keep up with the Biggest Loser Challenge, which I am really glad I am a part of. But the latest challenge included a part to blog about how life will be different after reaching my fitness and weight loss goals and it got me thinking.
I think a very big part of how my life will be different is just in the KNOWING that I can do it. I have tried so many times and failed to get in my best shape and lose weight and be fit. I never seem to be able to get there and that bothers me a lot. I think it speaks to a bigger issue. Something in me that keeps me from reaching my goals.
There was a part of the Biggest Loser that really got me for some reason. The guy in the first episode in the first workout kept falling off of the treadmill. When he was outside he started bawling and he said something to the effect that it was just a metaphor for his life. He felt like he just kept falling over and over. And that is how I feel a lot of the time. But I have felt something in me recently shifting and changing. I am feeling stronger and more confident in myself. I am feeling more capable and more responsible. I really don't know exactly what sparked it. Maybe it was just a lifetime of experience reaching a tipping point and my accumulated knowledge and effort coming together to move me forward. I really don't know, but I like it.
So achieving my goal of fitness and weight loss will just be a message to myself that I CAN accomplish what I set my mind to. That I am perfectly capable of achieving any goal.
Another thing I think that will come of it is to gain more energy and confidence, which will allow me to really be in life the person that I know I am on the inside. Help me show myself more. I tend to do too much hiding out and make excuses to stay in or stay stuck. I want to be more social and get into all the things I love. To really take off the way that I know that I can.
I don't think losing weight is the magic solution for all happiness in my life. I think feeling better about myself is helping me to lose weight. So I guess it is a cycle. Feel better, lose weight. Lose weight, feel better. But I do think that being the best me that I can is definitely a life improvement. And I want for myself what I want for everyone: The very best life I can have in this amazing little adventure on the planet!