Sunday, January 27, 2013
This morning I discovered that I was motivator of the day again. My first thought was why me? Ive gained 40lbs back and still havent managed to lose it. Then I shook that nasty negativity out of my brain and had another thought, my glass half full thought. I have maintained a 90lb weight loss for almost 2 years now and through a pregnancy. I may have gained a bit back but I havent given up the fight.
Now for an update.I gained 15lbs over the holidays bringing my weight to 205lbs. During the day I was closer to 210 then 200. Thats when I felt it all slipping away and I had to act fast. I decided to dip into what little savings Ive managed to build and buy a used treadclimber. The treadclimber is what I used the first time and its what I will use again. And just like last time once I no longer need it I can sell it and recoup my money. I actually made a profit the first time so that would be a nice added bonus.
Its been 2 weeks since I brought it home. I had forgot how much i sweat when I use it. To me sweat signifies a great workout. Sometimes it is so hard to coordinate our family going to the gym and the treadclimber allows me to get great exercise without all the work. So far I have lost about 7lbs of my 15lb holiday gain. The real weight loss doesnt start for me until I reach 190lbs and start working on the baby weight.
Its a start thought and Im proud of myself for pushing forward. I have managed to stay fairly chocolate free. Chocolate free to me means no candy. Its a trigger for me. I wish I could have just 1 piece but then I would want more and more and more until thats all ive eaten for an entire day. Dont get me wrong ive had my battles over the past 2 weeks. I struggled with peanut butter for a couple of days. I ate it all and then just didnt buy anymore.
Im glad I am motivator today. Its what I needed to keep pushing forward.
A recent picture of me and my babies. Setting an example for them and making sure they have a healthly mommy is why I do this.