4 Weeks Postpartum - Part 1
Sunday, January 27, 2013
I titled this Part 1, because I haven't gone to the Doctor yet. I won't go in until the 29th, so yeah. I feel great, though. Yeah, my sleep's been affected, but I've never really gotten great sleep. My oldest is doing well in school, academics-wise at least. We're still working on getting his behavior a bit better under control. I want him to go into advanced classes, but we can't if he's misbehaving.
My 5 year old is.....I don't even know what to call him. He's completely trashed his room over the past year. Granted, his brother helped originally, but still....Carpets need to be replaced, walls need to be painted, and his mattress needs to be replaced. Most of his toys have been destroyed. And he's a sweet kid, but if his mood turns sour at all, then he just....loses it I guess. If he even thinks he's in trouble, he completely shuts down and clams up. I really, really don't know what to do with him. I've tried so many different tactics with him and I just....I'm lost.
My oldest daughter is doing well, although she is a bit jealous of the baby. Most of her problem is she's just wanting some attention, which we try to give her. But she's only 18 months so she doesn't understand why she isn't getting the attention she wants. But, she hasn't really shown any aggression towards Emily, so I guess that's good.
And Emily is doing great. Growing like a little weed. She's still got her nights and days mixed a little bit, but it's not bad. Soon, I'm hoping we can get her to sleep through the night. She sleeps best when she's with me, but I can't hold her 24/7 (although I would love to). She's doing well, though.
Cody is doing ok. He had a really down week last week, but I think that might have been because of his appointment more than anything. He hates it, but he gets really anxious around Doctor's and hospitals. I want him to go to my Doctor's appointment with me. But I don't think we can find a sitter and I'm not dragging 3 kids with us.
I'm trying to figure out what I really want to do. I'm 28 years old. I have 4 children. I don't want any more children. So, I'm going to ask her if she'll do a hysterectomy and let me keep my ovaries. She's already told me she'd cut, clamp, and burn my tubes for me. I'm wondering, and hoping, she'll do this procedure, especially since we've both come to the understanding that I am done with the baby-making. I've got 2 more days until the appointment. I'll worry about it then, I guess.