Saturday, January 26, 2013
I decided to make one of those digital models at www.modelmydiet.com/
. The 'current' image was far too kind but my goal isn't too far off from what I envisage.
Some of it seems impossible. No matter how much weight I've lost in the past, I've always had an indent at my belly button, left over from my teenage years when I had proper stomach rolls. I tried to get rid of it through Lipo-Light treatments a few years ago but it didn't work. I'm forever trying to find ways to hide it, since it shows up through most of my clothes; nevermind a bikini.
And then there are my monstrous legs. My thighs I can deal with, but my calves are the source of so much difficulty... My feet, first of all, are extraordinarily talented at developing blisters. Boots are the only type of footwear that don't give me blisters and so I try to wear them as often as I possibly can. Except the size of my calves means that most boots don't fit me. I can't afford a really good quality pair so they wind up getting worn through several months in. And they never fit at the ankle because mine are freakishly lean for being attached to such big legs.
As much as I'd like to believe I am capable of looking something like that model, deep down I know my stomach will probably always be lumpier and my legs thicker. And I can't decide whether or not I'm ok with that.