Saturday, January 26, 2013
Well, I realized I have been lying to myself. Yes, my weight does matter to me. I did a good job of being a mom even if I have a weight problem. We did lots of great things. I still go places and do thing. No the weight does not stop me.
HOWEVER, I just started to work. I am working in the schools that my kids attend. I feel self conscious. My kids have not said anything hurtful to me. The teachers have not said anything hurtful or mean and certainly the students are not being mean. BUT, the things that I say in my head about myself are not acceptable.
If I am honest I am not putting my best self out into the world when I feel like this inside. So it is time to be honest with myself and look at the importance of the extra food that has gotten me here. I need to really pay attention to my food choices and my exercise.
But, I am very happy that my kids are still kind and I am committed to working on this and having a great journey. Now I know.