Saturday, January 26, 2013
So the holidays were a challenge this year - but not for the reasons you might think. Or sort of not. I had a personal cancer scare around Thanksgiving that, thankfully, turned out benign and served as a sort of wake up call. Then my daughters were sick, strep that stuck around even after a course of antibiotics. Of course, this is all happening around the first anniversary of my dad's passing. Christmas was difficult in part because of that, but more because my mom is having so much difficulty. And they foreclosed on her home. Now, she's been living with us for the last year, but it was still emotional. The last home she shared with my dad. And as many right now, our economics are- well, tight. Tighter now that I'm providing for her and an adult sibling bringing my total to 4 adults and 2 kids living in a small house on a budget meant for four. This isn't intended, nor as I'm wiritng it, do I feel like I'm wanting this to be a pity party. It's not. It's all just to say that the holidays were more stressful and emotional than usual, and what with illness and limited resources, it was challenging to keep motivated. And I lost my momentum, even despite what was a personal health wake-up call in the beginning, I lost my forward motion.
Well, despite all that, I am slowly getting back on track. I decided that I deserved a gym membership so that I could take a zumba class. It's a luxury but I rationalized that the cost of going to the gym and getting healthy is far less than the cumulative cost of being fat and unhealthy. And as I don't like to exercise outside when it's cold, it was a way to keep going. So, I find that I am now back in motion. I've been fairly consistent with zumba and getting over to the gym and find myself again longing to train for a half marathon, perusing the Disney marathon information pages. It's a dream of mine to run one of those, as it would signal a new kind of personal success - what small steps and great personal accomplishments it would require and mean for me to complete one of those!! That would be the definition of awesome! (webster's, not colloquial) ; )
Anyhow, I hope you've found your motion this year. That your resolutions haven't slipped past you, and that you are fully present and able to enjoy everything that that forward motion delivers.
Have a wonderful new year, and keep in motion!