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Cautiously Optimistic

Saturday, January 26, 2013

I have been under the 200 lb. mark for about a year now, but that is where the weight loss story stayed until recently. I worked so hard to go from 215 lbs. to under 200 lbs. I got so excited yet frusrated with myself that I started try to rush the weight loss progress. I cut my calories really low to double the weightloss. Soon after that move, then I just basically gave up. I sabotaged myself as I have done so many times. It hurt because this has happened to me so many times, yet I can't stop doing it.

I recently started cutting calories...sensibly and using my will power to get through the cravings. I am now 191 lbs. I am happy because the scale numbers are finally moving again. I am sad because I have so much more weight to lose.

I wish I could learn to enjoy my weight loss success along the way and be proud of what I have accomplished. I am just so disappointed that it took so many years to get back to where I am. I just have such a long way to go.

I am so scared I will sabotage myself again.
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  • v JULESJET
    You are worth hanging in there for!
    You can do it!
    And you are doing great by realizing what mistakes you have made and working to fix that!
    Keep it up!
    You are getting healthier already!
    1306 days ago
  • v LIFEFOUNDONARUN
    What a wonderful accomplishment for you!! Be gentle with yourself. Retraining your thinking takes time. Sounds like you're holding onto old behaviors in thinking your way into sabotaging your successes. It takes time to learn new ways of thinking, but it's a great first step to notice that you're doing it in the first place! Good luck to you! emoticon
    1306 days ago
  • v JOANN1212
    hang in there
    1306 days ago
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