I woke up today a little later than usual (9:30 am) weekend time, and thought about all the things I had to do:
(1) take care of the animal babies;
(2) clean the litter box (yuck);
(3) clean house;
(4) respond to some work e-mails;
(5) spearhead organization of a trip;
(7) buy groceries . . .
all before church tonight.
I didn't particularly want to do any of it, and my impulse was to sit on the couch and watch just one short episode of a new documentary on Netflix.
Before I started the show, I reminded myself that the to-do list wasn't going to go away, and that the episode would be there for me to watch later. I literally told myself to start out by completing my daily micro goals (vitamins, mouthwash, listen to a get-up-and-go song), and then I made a new to-do list.
Well, now I'm updating my spark blog with a cup of tea, and I've gotten ALL my stuff done, AND MORE, except for the run, which is happening next.
I've spent some time this week figuring out why--even though I thrive in a structured, organized environment--I have such trouble creating one for myself
So, I took some personality assessment tests and think I got some answers. According to the results, I love to work on theory and systems (very true) and tend to be a "big picture" person. The test analysis says that people who like to create systems have a desire to investigate every single option before they make a decision, which can mean that they have difficulty beginning projects.
STORY OF MY LIFE.
Flashback to this morning. I realized what was bothering me was that I had so much to do, that in my head, I was running through possible ways to organize my day and thinking about what would happen in a billion different contingencies, like "What if I find accommodations for the trip, and no one responds to my e-mails in time, how can I possibly confirm? Should I save that for tomorrow?"
Even though I wasn't conscious initially of what I was doing, I definitely went through way too many "if, then" analyses, and I became so overwhelmed that, instead of doing something, I was just about to sit down and do nothing.
I'm so glad I didn't choose to do nothing. Because now, I feel great.
My micro goals are really helping to give me a place to "start" everyday. And I think this episode teaches me that if I continually fail at doing something, it it worthwhile to put time investigating the "why."