Life requires me to show up.
Saturday, January 26, 2013
I got on the scale today and I am at 235. I thought about my habits and my life, and I realized that my health is more important than a number. I can't keep going through my life being numb. It leads to mediocrity. If I keep waiting for the perfect time to start getting healthy, I will never do it. I can't wait until I have enough money, or until the weather gets better, or the BF stops offering me food, or until I can eat the way I would prefer. It is an excuse to stay numb, to keep the status quo.
I was meditating earlier this week and I got the message "This is scary". This thought was in regards to living the life I want: to be healthy, wealthy, and happy. And I thought to myself, 'Yes, it is." And I released it. I realized that it is OK to be afraid. It is natural. And accepting and releasing it has helped me to be more at peace with my life. So I made the decision this morning to just go for it.
There is no better time than now to get healthy. I may not be able to walk like I used to, but I can ride a bike, so I bought me a bike. I have a place to ride it, and I have the inspiration to move forward. I am not giving up anything other than procrastination and poor health. I even had chocolate chips for breakfast. : )
As long as I maintain my awareness and take the time to measure EVERYTHING, I will be ok. It will help me to stay within my range, and that will help me to get healthier. Now, I need to go get ready. I have a bike waiting for me. : D