Saturday, January 26, 2013
I'm so dreading my weigh-in tomorrow! I've had a good week but somehow my body is clinging, desperately clinging to the fat and is unwilling to let it go.
I can't possibly have come to....
Oh no. I haven't reached a plateau yet. It's knowing that it's going to happen that bothers me. My best friend and I discussed this just this morning. Why is it that our bodies will cling to fat almost like it's glue but DOES NOT want to release it? We hit plateaus, we gain, but to lose, we have to fight like we are fighting the devil for our souls! I can go and obviously have gone years of very little change in weight, but let me try to lose that weight and "OH NO YOU'RE NOT" this fat body shouts! This weigh-in I am dreading because I believe my fat cells have put out their grubby little paws and scooped up more. The scale will show an increase, I just know it! I would rather have not lost any than to have gained!
My body seems to just lllloooooovvveeee it's fatness. I don't. As easy as it is to gain the weight, which is pretty darn easy, it likewise should be as easy to lose the weight. At least that's my thinking. But it's not. It's eating differently. It's incorporating exercise into my daily routine. It's not drinking Mt. Dew and McDonald's Sweet Tea every day. Yes, I'm still upset about that.
Being knowledgeable about calories doesn't make going out to eat any fun either. Knowing that my plate of food has the caloric and fat content of several days worth of meals is beyond upsetting. No wonder we are a country of fatties! I love to have a good hamburger and french fries but to get it from a restaurant, I wouldn't be able to eat for the rest of the week! Even boxed meals, the add your own meat kind, are high in fat, in calories, and definitely sodium. I fixed myself one this week and blew my sodium content completely off the charts.
I feel like there's nothing good out there for me to eat. What I like isn't good for me. What I dislike is. Fat is quick to stay and slow to go. The fat within this body has overstayed it's welcome. I want it to go but I feel like I'm definitely in a fight with the devil for a healthy, slim body.
Who will win?