Saturday, January 26, 2013
When I think of my goals in life, it becomes almost intoxicating to me. I love to dream. I love to create the vision of my dreams and picture myself at the desired end result. It's something I've done since I was a little girl. I would spend hours dreaming and I loved every minute of it.
In my adult life, I still love to dream, though I don't have as much time to do it so when I do I make sure it's worthwhile. Nowadays my dreaming entails the vision of what I want to accomplish, along with a plan of how to get there. It always takes a bit of tweaking because when I dream, I dream BIG. I don't like to use the word "unrealistic" or "impossible" because I'm a firm believer that nothing is impossible if you truly want it. You just need to find the way to it. So many plans get rewritten and then rewritten again. Does this cause a bit of annoyance or anger? When I first began working towards my dreams, yes it did because I wanted them as soon as possible. When I matured a bit and realized that it's the journey I'm taking to get to the dream that is the most important part of it, that's when it clicked with me and I relaxed a bit and tweaked my thinking on what is actually important here.
Truth is I learned to trust the process. I heard that saying on The Biggest Loser from one of the trainers many years ago and it always resonated with me, stuck in the back of my mind until I understood through my own journey what it truly meant. Once I learned to trust the process, I learned to trust myself as well. I learned to trust that I am capable of creating a dream, creating a plan to achieve that dream, and accomplishing that dream, too. I also had to learn and accept that not everyone will back me up in my dreams and that needed to be part of the plan to accomplish it. Finding the confidence in myself to believe that I am worthy and capable to my own dreams was not an easy task to accomplish.
Over the course of my own journey, I see the gradual maturing and creation of a new thinking and dreaming also. What an important piece of life this is for me. That doesn't mean I don't revert back to the "old" way of thinking, because I still do. I used to fear life, and sometimes I still do but judging by a recent situation that would have caused paralyzing fear for me in the old days, I looked at the situation and found a brand spanking new feeling of trust in myself in that I knew, for a fact, that I would be able to handle it....and the fear went away. I will go as far to say, that I was almost trying to bring that fear out because it was how I would have responded in the past, but I didn't. I love progress :)
Sometimes it's just those small things that are the biggest successes.