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Something Weird is happening today

Saturday, January 26, 2013

Weird things are happening to me today!

Last night, I did the Havening technique before bed, put on my iPod to listen to the pre-op instructions, laid down and shut my eyes, and woke up halfway through the second track! The one Iím not supposed to listen to till I feel Iím ready to have the gastric band fitted. I simply switched it off and went back to sleep.

I slept so well that when I awoke, I really didnít know what day of the week it was, it took me a while to come round.

Iím not a great breakfast eater, but today I was hungry, so I sat down to a small bowl of muesli. A tasty one, all nuts, fruits and seeds. In order to eat more slowly, Iíve been eating it with a teaspoon, today, Iíd eaten no more than half a dozen spoonfuls, chewing studiously, when suddenly I realized that I was Bored!

Yes bored with chewing, bored with swallowing, bored with the taste! I left the bowl on the side for a while, in case I rediscovered my lost appetite, but after about five minutes, by which time the muesli had absorbed all the milk, and congealed into one lump, and looked even less appetizing, I gave up and the rest went into the bin.

I had coffee with a neighbour, then decided to walk to the big DIY store in Sutton, promising myself a pasty for lunch when I got there. It was only later, when I was walking home, that I remembered that pasty. I had walked past the pasty shop, past the McDonalds, without even thinking about food! There have been past times, when either on one diet or another, I would have chosen not to have that pasty, but I would have felt sad, a bit deprived, maybe even virtuous about having made the Ďright choicesí. Today it didnít even occur to me! Lost in my own thoughts, food didnít even register on my radar!

I walked the long way round too, in both directions, a distance of about six miles, in 90 minutes! Itís not flat either. All right itís hardly the Highlands, but neither is it Holland. Sutton is distinctly lumpy.


Later, at home, now I was hungry. I had a peanut butter sandwich. One slice of bread, one teaspoonful of peanut butter, not exactly over the top. I managed half of it! I simply didnít want it any more! Not so much full, as just didnít want it, It joined the muesli in the bin.

Really weird!

And my mood!! I have always been a cheerful, positive, glass half full person, but I have my moments. I have a violent temper, once itís roused. Yesterday, I had two fairly simple DIY jobs to do, and they both went badly wrong. Usually that would have led to, in no particular order:-

Snarling visceral rage! At the whole unfairness of the universe!
Tears of frustration
Lots of stamping up and down stairs
Self hatred at the general uselessness of my muscles, and because I was going to have to ask my son to do it, and he has enough to do already.
Depression for most of the day.

Yesterday, did I care?

In fact, at one point I had to come down off the ladder because I had a vision of how it would look to someone else, and I was shaking with laughter.

And anyway
Was it worth having a hissy fit over four overtightened screws and a £1.99 light fitting from B+Q..... NO
Would it hurt me to ask for assistance .... NO
Would my son mind me asking.... NO, (actually he will laugh with me at the story, and enjoy feeling masculine, superior and useful).

Plus, in myself, I feel so well!!


I have an added BOUNCE

I have more BOING in my bungee!

This evening I have lamb shanks for dinner, I wonder how much of it will go back into the slow cooker (crockpot) for tomorrow!

So itís one week till I have my hypnotic Gastric Band fitted. I will weigh myself, adjust my ticker, upwards unfortunately, take my measurements and wait for it to start.

But, perhaps, unbeknown to me, it has already started.


Member Comments About This Blog Post:
CIPHER1971 1/27/2013 5:34PM

    glad you have had such an excellent day

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EOWYNRUSS 1/27/2013 1:42AM

    As you know, I have restarted following McKenna's techniques, with good results, but the Havening technique sounds fascinating. I always get seasonal blahs, and would love to walk around with a feeling of joy. I may have to get a copy of this new book. Is the tapping technique short enough to email?

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SAINTBETH 1/27/2013 1:09AM

    Weird but good!

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COCK-ROBIN 1/27/2013 12:28AM


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DOVESEYES 1/26/2013 6:09PM

    What a wonderful day emoticon

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    I should be blessed with like weirdness happenings.
Keep us posted.
I wonder if this would work for me?

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CATLADY52 1/26/2013 5:22PM

    It sounds as if it is already working. Congrats for success so far. But don't put your health at risk. emoticon

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AKELAZ 1/26/2013 4:06PM

    Great blog! Have read yesterday's and today's in one hit and am riveted by the principles, the process and your progress already. I have also had the offer of McKenna's book and discs from Amazon and disregarded them, however seeing your blog and knowing what a rational person you are I'll be sending for them and giving them a go - who knows? What I do know is that every little helps and I'm grateful to you for posting. Hope we can follow each other's progress?

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MILLISMA 1/26/2013 2:44PM

    It is all very interesting. So looking forward to reading how things are going. Thanks for sharing what you are doing.

hugs...Mary Anne

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CHIASMA 1/26/2013 2:25PM

    Sounds like it's doing its job, but I'm a little worried you've lost too much of your appetite! Remember that you do actually need to eat more than a few mouthfuls per day.

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SHELLYBABE2 1/26/2013 1:10PM

    Ooh it's sounding good already :) so looking forward to watching your journey unfold.

I've just picked up my copy from the library today - did think of buying it but wanted to look it over first and if the results are as I hope they are I will certainly be needing my very own copy. Might just be the thing that gets my journey jump started again, can't wait.

Look forward to your next update TFS


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MARUKI52 1/26/2013 1:06PM

    I'm sorry but I just had to laugh.....and laugh.....and laugh! I had this picture in my mind of this person up the ladder shaking with laughter and the ladder wobbling with you.

Apart from that, way to go gal! I hope your good vibes continue and you are successful in your endeavours.

PS What is the Havening technique?

Comment edited on: 1/26/2013 1:06:59 PM

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MISSUSRIVERRAT 1/26/2013 12:00PM

    Well, it does show the influence of the subconscious, I would say......???

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OLIVIANIGHT 1/26/2013 11:31AM

    Wow, what a day!

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RAINBOWCHOC 1/26/2013 11:04AM

    I hope your good vibes continue. Don't let the blood sugar get too low though

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INGMARIE 1/26/2013 10:54AM

    woohoo, emoticon seems you are doing good there, but ofcourse ,
I do remember muessli and the milk ,if you dont eat it fast enough (YUKKY)
Nuff said.

way to go, emoticon emoticon

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CHICCHANTAL 1/26/2013 10:48AM


Mind, when I saw the title of the blog I thought you'd been tasting funny beer again.

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