Saturday, January 26, 2013
Mom had another serious bladder infection 10 days ago. This has been her undoing this past year and led to her worsening kidney failure and infections in her bloodstream which resulted in several heart attacks, an infection in her spine and now loss of blood flow to her large intestine. This caused the intestine to die. She is too sick for surgery so the intestine will result in her demise. Mom has not complained through all of this except to tell dad before this last insult to her body that she was ready to go home to heaven.
Mom is out of the hospital and back in the nursing home where she is in familiar surroundings. She has had a burst of energy for the past two days the likes of which she has not had for the past several months. She is lucid and talkative. I am enjoying this precious gift but know it will end soon. Mom still has an infection which will get worse, uncontrolled high blood pressure, severe electrolyte imbalances and has had no food or drink in 10 days. I do not know what today will bring. It is hard to lose her.
I am trying to be strong for my family. I am a nurse so they look to me for explanations. I am the durable power attorney for healthcare so I have to make the decisions or sign the paperwork after discussions with my family. So I teeter back and forth between nurse and daughter. I feel so bad for my dad. He and mom have been married 63 years. He has taken such good care of her. He is a wonderful, loving, patient man and she is such a lucky woman to have him.
So if anyone is reading this, please pray for my mom to pass peacefully, for my family to find strength and peace, and for my father to know he has done his very best and to find a way to live without his fiesty bride and find joy and fulfillment in his remaining years.